There was I, pinned up against the wall, with my legs around Michael's waist, his hand on my thigh and the other under my shirt on my back.
His mouth on my neck, and my hands on his neck pushing him closer to me.
Wait, am i going to be just the slut that slept with Michael? Am i going to be just a "fling"?
I can't do this...
Michael... - i said taking my legs off his waist.
He looked down at me, he looked sad, i looked at my feet and i walked away.
The door had been unlocked when i was making out with Michael.
I grabbed my phone and called Luke as i walked away from the house.
Hey - he said - Hey why are you crying?
And why are you calling me at 3 am? - he said.
C-can you p-pick me up? - i said with tears rolling down my face.
Of course where are you? - he asked i could hear him running around and getting on his car.
Huh, hm - i hummed and saw a sign with the streets name and told him.
Ok I'll be right there, stay where you are!- he said and i sat on the grass right next to the sign.
I was still crying, with my knees to my chest and my head on the middle.
Suddenly i felt someone's arms around me.
Shh, calm down... - i hear Luke's voice as he hugged me.
I want to go home - i sobbed on his chest.
He carried me to the car and drove me home.
I don't even know why I'm so beaten about this, it's killing me, the image of his lips on mine is always repeating over and over again.
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I woke up with a huge headache from last night, i got downstairs and drank some water taking a painkiller with it.
Good morning - Ash said giving me a kiss on the forehead.
Morning - i said.
Were you crying? - he asked me.
Hum, yes.
No, why? - i lied and bit my lip.
You're eyes are red and puffy...- he said looking at me.
Probably because i just woke up! - i said.
Hm okay, you have a plate with pancakes on the kitchen table...- he said and i walked to kitchen and saw Lilly with a bag and Ash came to the kitchen with a bag too.
Oh yeah i forgot they're going to mom's house this weekend.
I decided to stay.
I kissed Lilly's forehead.
Morning baby - i said and grabbed my plate.
Good morning! - she said with a smile.
What hours is mommy picking you up? - i asked her and started eating.
In about a hour! - she said smiling.
Tell her hi for me, ok? -i asked and she nodded.
I'm going back upstairs -i said finished eating and got upstairs.
I put high waisted denim shorts and a white T-shirt that was longer in the back, i put none makeup for the first time in ever and pulled up my hair to a mess bun.
I put my white vans and my white purse.
I walked downstairs and saw mom with Lilly and Ashton.
Hi mom!- i said grabbing Ashton's car keys.
Hi sweetie, gosh i haven't seen you in so long, you look beautiful!! - she said.
Mom you're over exaggerating... It's only been 2 months!- i said rolling my eyes.
You're my daughter i should see you more often, and not see see you in 2 months! - she said.
I know and I'm sorry, next weekend I'll stay with you! - i smiled and so did she.
Great! - she said.
Ashton i can use your car like always right? - i asked him.
Yeah, where are you going? - Ashton asked.
Going to grab Starbucks and probably go for a walk probably on the beach!- i said.
Okay-he said.
Bye! - i said waving at all of them.
Bye! - they said and i also heard my mom saying bye honey.
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I was walking around the beach with my coffee frappucino with vanilla and whipped cream on top.
I saw Calum laying there on the sand tanning.
He saw me and i started tensing up. He sat up and i looked away, i sighed and started walking away till i hear Calum calling me.
Hey!- he grabbed me by the shoulder.
He was breathless.
Hum hey... - i said just really trying to avoid interaction.
What happened yesterday, Michael's really worried, he told me that he has called you like a thousand times or texted you a million times and you don't answer! - he said and i bit my lip.
I'm feeling really bad.
He thinks he ruined everything with you and that you hate him - he said.
I-i don't know what to do Calum... - i said looking at the ground.
A tear escaped my eye.
Hey, hey calum down... - he said rolling his eyes and i laughed because he said calum instead of calm.
Yass, i hate when people say that but i thought it would make you laugh and it worked! - he smiled.
Look just talk with him, figure things out, i hate seeing my bestfriend like this, I've never seen him cry before!! - he said.
And that was when i realized what i did, it was me who ruined everything, i made him feel like shit and I'm feeling bad for myself??
Fuck...
I quickly picked up my phone.
Thank you Calum, I'll call him right now!!- i kissed him on the cheek and walked away, i called michael and waved at Calum.
Catherine! Thank god, baby look I'm sorry, I didn't meant to ruin everything, please forgive me! - he said i could hear him crying.
Michael, It's okay, It was me who caused all this... I'm sorry... - i said and tears rolled down on my face and I got in the car.
No babe please... - he said but i interrupted him.
Mikey stop!- i said -I'm coming over...
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Baby... - Michael said hugging me.
I hugged him back and played with his hair.
I'm sorry i shouldn't have kissed you... - he said looking at the floor as he pulled away.
Michael! Stop apologizing!! - i said and we walked to his room, he sat on his bed.
I'm sorry - he mumbled.
I rolled my eyes and kissed him.
