I got the phone call i had been waiting for, i got the part! I am beyond excited, i'm playing opposite Gillian Anderson, yeah thats right THE GILLIAN ANDERSON...what an honour. I couldn't wait for Amelia to get home to tell her. We had spent the previous week as normal, our usual routine although Amelia had still been tetchy, snapping at me for what seems like no reason but i assumed she must have had something on her mind to make her that way. I'm meeting her for lunch at a local cafe, checking my watch i see i better get a move on or she will snap at me for being late i think, breathing a huge sigh.
Smiling as i enter the restaurant i spot her at a table in a quiet corner. I lower and kiss her cheek "hey you" but she doesn't respond. We order our meal and continue with our usual conversation, asking about each others day. I take a breath "I have some news...i got that part i had auditioned for" She smiles at me, for what i feel for the first time in days genuinely "thats so great, congratulations. When do you have to leave?" I look at my hands, "i leave for Belfast in a week, why don't you come with me?" She just stares at me like i have grown horns, what did i say wrong? "Jamie i can't just up and leave my life at the drop of a hat" she pauses "...like you do.." she pauses again, longer this time and looks me in the eye "I don't want you to take the part, i don't want you to leave me to be around her" I shake my head, not quite sure i heard her correctly. "What? Amelia, this is a once in a lifetime opportunity, not just the part but to work with Gillian. And what do you mean to be around her?" i'm getting exasperated now with this "have you forgotten who i am getting married to? or would you prefer if i did forget?" I can't believe i just said that, this isn't who i am. She sits there, stunned..i slowly rise from my chair and place my napkin on the table "I can't deal with this right now, i'm taking the part and i'd like it if you could support me as i do with you even when i don't agree. I'll see you at home...perhaps" I don't wait for her reply as i rush out the door.
I hear our flat door open and close and then footsteps but i say nothing. "I'm sorry, i don't know why i'm being such a bitch. Of course you should take this part we can visit on weekends?" she sniffles. I look up and see her quietly crying "apology accepted. sure we can visit weekends, i think this time apart would do us the world of good. I don't know whats gotten into you lately Amelia but i don't like it. Perhaps you should think about what the problem is, tell me and then address it" she goes to speak but i halt her with my finger held up "let me finish please. i'm not leaving you i am just leaving for my job..and maybe you can use that time to work on yourself. I'm sorry but i can't live with someone who snaps at the smallest thing and if we can't live together..." i don't have to finish, she knows where this is going. She sits next to me and takes my hand "i really am sorry, i promise it will stop" I kiss the stop of her head and pull her into me "Why don't we have a glass of wine to relax, to celebrate" she suggests. That sounds like a good idea, we could both do with chilling out a bit.
One glass turned into 3 bottles, i am beyond drunk...i'm vaguely aware of being helped into bed and my clothes coming off...after that its all a blur.
