The Dance

Chapter 6

Jackson Anthony Miller Loving Friend, Boyfriend and Father , love in our hearts forever

I stare at the grave stone tears building up in my eyes

I'm still mad at his parents they were never there for him they didn't even come to his funeral what kind of parents does that. He didn't deserve that, they didn't deserve him. He was the most precious thing that was in my life and he was the most sweet, caring loving guy ever he'd do anything for anyone that he cared about even if he didn't know them he would still help them he was just that kind of guy and it hurt so much when he was gone I look down at my ring on it's chain along with the charm of the baby that me and Jackson was surpposed to share before a drunk driver had ruin it for us.

I don't know how long i had been sitting here but it has been hours cause its almost dark now

I head home, i got a text from Emerald a couple hours ago asking about the party but i declind because i just cant go and get drunk espically after one had killed the love of my life I just dont feel right after that. I get inside and i'm automatically ingulfed in a hug by a brown hair brown eyed girl.

"Woah, Hey Amber woah chill ambs im here." she just kept on squessing me. 'Woah ambs let go' she finally lets go and see looks at me

"Don't you ever do that again you scared the living crap out of me, Wait where did you go?"

"Just to go see someone." she nodded in understanding. I look over her shoulder and see Xavier standing behind her I look back at her.

"I better go take a shower, ill be back soon."

I go to my room and start getting ready for that shower. I go and do everything that I need to and get out and start changing I had just gotten my underwear on when the door opens and I turn around thinking it amber but it's not it's db

"ahhh! get out" I yell at him

"Woah, nice tits"

I cover myself 'Get out now!'

"But its such an amazing view"

"Get out before I do unholy things to you"

"What kind of unholy things"

"Like chopping off your balls and nailing them to your forehead now get out"

he grabs himself

"Geez don't have to get brutal" he says before he leaves

I quickly change and open the door and Xavier is still there

"What do you want"

"I was just wanting to know if you want to go get some food?, Amber passed out on the couch "

"Uhh yeah sure, I guess let me get my shoes and stuff"

I put on my converse and a jacket  and grab my purse then push pass him to the door and get in his car. He soon comes out to the car and get in the car.

"So where do you want to go "

"Uhh how about Panda Express"

"Sure"

We pass it the cross and I cringe before I could stop it and sadly it didn't go unnoticed by DB

"What?"

"Nothing"

"No whats wrong"

"It's nothihng- its to much- it to pain- i cant ." I look over at him and he is just staring t the road

I sigh, "It happened almost two years ago, and I'm still not over it but that all im saying"

"It's ok I understand you need time"

I look at him and he looks at me before looking back

"That means alot, after it happened-" I swallow the lump in my throat trying hard to push the unwanted thoughts out of my head, "-everyone wanted me to go to therapy and stuff and I understand why but everyone was just sufficating and I'm grateful that i have them i am but it was just hard to heal when they kept bringing it up, I mean its still hard.
-" i start to zone out thinking about the nightmares. "-the nightmares still live in my head" i say playing with my necklace." the demons won't leave me alone, they enjoy the pain I'm going through they feed off of it, its like the worse I get the more the demons are taunting me, telling me that I'm going to fall and when I do I wont be able to get back up." i look and see Db looking at me intently, i clear my throat

"I'm sorry, you don't want to hear about it" I sheepishly smile at him

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Xaviers Pov

We were driving when she all of a sudden just cringed

"What?" i say

"Nothing" she responds, no it wasnt nothing for her to act that way

"No what's wrong"

"It's nothing- its to much-its to pain- i cant." i hadn't notice  that i was looking at her it's just that there was so many secrets about her that she just intriges me.

she sighs, "it was two years ago and I'm still not over it and thas all im saying." Trust me i understand what its like to not want to talk to anyone i just got to get her open up

"It's ok i understand you need time"

I see her looking at me formt the corner of my eye i look at her before i look back at the road, then she starts talking again.

"That means alot after it happened." she pauses, after what happened? i want to ask but i bite my tongue, then she continues.

"everyone wanted me to go to thearpy and stuff and i understand why but everyone was just sufficating and I'm grateful to have them but it was just hard for me to heal when they kept bringing it up, i mean it still hard."she starts ataring off into space. "the nightmaes livee in my head" she says playing with that necklace of hers "the demons wont leave me alone, they enjoy the pain im going through they feed on it, it's like the worse I get, the more the demons are taunting me telling me that, I'm going to fall and when I do I won't get back up. she looks at me  coughs

"I'm sorry, you don't want to hear about it" she says

"No its fine I understand, trust me I do"

"You've lost someone?" she questions

"You have no idea"

"Do you want to talk about it?

"I'll make a deal with you, when you tell me about your pass I'll tell you about mine."

she thinks about it

"Fine, but don't hold your breath"

The rest of the ride was very quiet