(•ө•)♡ Random Ish (•ө•)♡ [#Wattys2016]

Don't lose yourself.

Starting with this chapter I'd like to tell ya'll a fun fact, that Every single chapter in this book is in a way related to my personal life experiences.

Why do I say, that You should'nt lose yourself?

Along this path , walking through the ups and downs of life, we meet people, who mould us into the Person we are today, and remember you won't always stay the same.

But then, when You walk into the wrong lane, you come across people who seem good at first, show you their good sides, keep you unknown from their bad faces, you blindly trust them, tell them your deepest secrets, open up the pages of your life.......

And then one day, they show their bad side, the side you were not knowing of, the side you almost never expected, you didn't even knew it existed, they hurt you, in ways you could never even think of...

And then you're left, Abandoned.

This is the time when you start questioning yourself,
Why did I ever trust him?
Why did I ever give in?
Who is this person even?
Why did I ever let him into my life?

None of those questions will ever get answered.

Cause all the reasons you thought of, were proved wrong :(

And there's no use torturing yourself for it.

Your time, feelings, emotions, love, trust, once invested can never be taken back.
Once its gone, it's gone.

Don't ever give in into someone so much, that you forget who you are.

I don't remember the last time I sang my heart out, I don't remember the last time I picked a brush and did some art on my nails, I don't remember the last time I sat to compete with my best friend on an online game,...

I don't watch Youtube anymore, I don't record myself singing songs anymore,
My instagram is full of quotes and selfies but no nail art pictures since God knows months...

Where has Celeste gone?

Who am I?

This isn't me.

I wasn't the person who would stress on lil things .

If it was my fault, I'd apologize.
If it wasn't , I'd simply forgive.

If someone wanted to go away from me, I simply let them.

But today I find myself apologizing when it wasn't even my fault, I found myself struggling to keep a person into my life when they clearly didn't give a shit .

When did I become this weak ass person?

I had to remind myself, that I am a Strong girl, with a strong mind, a brave heart and a fierce soul.

And that a single person cannot change the way I am or the way I live.

Don't let anyone make alterations to the perfect Being you are.

Don't lose yourself in the pursuit of approval.

Don't try to change yourself for the ones who are unable to see your true worth.

Don't lose yourself while trying to hold on to someone who isn't even scared of losing you.

Yes , you will obviously feel bad letting them go away, but just know, the hardships that you are going through rn are just a part of God's divine plan.
He has planned something bigger and better. Just hold on, don't lose your faith, don't lose yourself, don't torture yourself, don't degrade yourself.

You deserve all the happiness life has to offer you..

And whatever happens whether good or bad, take em all as lessons for the future.

Don't let anyone mould you into a bitter person.

Mould yourself into a strong person, who someday will trust again and love again. Who won't be that stupid to tolerate anyone's bullshit.

Life's too short to leave the key to your happiness in someone else's pocket :)

That's all for today, I hope ya'll have a great day ahead and no matter how hard your life is being rn, keep your head held high, I'll see you all in the next chapter, until then,
Stay you, Stay Beautiful :)