A Thought or Two

C O L D B R E A T H S

15-04-2018

you see, something my father always reminds me of, over and over, constantly and almost daily; and it is to slow down. calm down. take each moment and think. think before you explode. think before you feel. think before you talk. think.

sometimes things arent as intense as they may seem in the moment. arent as dramatic. arent as sad. most of the time i end up regretting the way i react to things. maybe because i misunderstand and act upon what i understood. or maybe because i feel that i am in a VERY crazy situation and my feelings explode everywhere splashing on the walls and the people and on my soul. my dad really is right. i should slow down. i take time for granted. i think i have infinite time. but.. i do not.

one day i wont be able to speak to my mum. and i get angry at her so quickly. i get angry at my sister so many times. i shut myself in my room too often. i really need to calm down. i need to breathe. go out for walks. organize my day, my things, my mind, my mess. everything. everything is so messy around me. too overwhelming. i cry quick. i love quick. i hate quick. my emotions are seen without i even try to share them. i am loud and i talkative. and sometimes.. the more i speak the less valuable my words get.