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Letting Go

I wanted to take a nap, get rid of all these thoughts and questions that circled my mind again and again. Maybe just closing my eyes will put me in paradise. A burst of air blew through the room chilling the atmosphere. I quickly sat up startled and looked at my open window. Scared even. I thought I closed that thing. I didn't know what to do other then walk over to the window and look down to see what might of made it open. Before I could have even done so Damon's head popped up from underneath and was inches from my face. Looking into those beautiful eyes almost made me soft again. I stepped back startled.

"Damon! What the hell are you doing? Are you mad?!", I screamed at him in a whisper so no one would hear. 

Damon stumbled inside and fell to the floor in exhaustion. I ran to him and kneeled down beside him.

"I had to see you. I couldn't leave things the way we did.", He sat up panting and grasping for air.

"Damon, I left things the way they were for a specific reason. So I wouldn't have to hang on any longer then I already am. This way it wouldn't hurt us both as much as it already is."

"I can't leave without seeing you. Elena you cant just abandon one person that you care so much about and expect them to be okay with it. I have a heart."

"I know you do. I do too. Your a big part of it and when you leave you'll be taking a big part of that with you. Please only realize that i'm doing whats right. You have to understand on why I can't look into your eyes the same way I always did. I'll only be selfish enough to hold you back. I can't.", I could feel my eyes starting to burn as I pushed away the tears.

"Elena don't do this. Don't push me away. You know well enough that I won't stop because I know this is right. I won't forget about you. Please", Damon pleaded as his voice got softer and helpless.

I have to. I can't hang on to him like this, we'll talk. But not face to face. It's time I forget. Just for these few days. I had to let go. I let the tears come and looked away as I said my final words. "Goodbye Damon. I hope you have the best time in college and are able to get your career and life set straight. I hope you accomplish your goals in life, start a family and do the best you ever can when coming across obstacles. Know that i'm here to support you. You won't be forgotten, you will always be my best friend and will always exist and have a place in my heart. I--", I turned around to say my last three words while looking him straight in the eye but he was already gone.