"Have you ever wondered how many paper cuts it would take to kill you"
Holly Ashington was abandoned when she was 14 and has been fending for her self for two years. she is bullied at school and self harms but when all is dark there is a light and t...
Im invisible. Well i wish i was . Its like nobody can see Me well most of the time. If they didnt push me all time and call me names i'd probably forget i exist. By they i mean Charlotte Mulberry and all the other people at my school. I was currently thinking about all of this when my second alarm went. I sighed and climbed out of bed and grabbed my phone. Stumbling out of bed my phone went off , Well thats a suprise considering i have no freinds.
HOE<3 : Cant wait to see you next week x
Me: Yah me too i miss you :( i'll pick you up at the airport x
HOE<3 : How is school x
Me : Shit as always :(
HOE<3 : Dont worry ill fix it when i come and live with you b x
Me: You can try i guess i gotta go or im gonna be late x <3
HOE<3: Aight just promise me one thing x
Me: ????
HOE<3: you wont cut again
ME: i'll try
HOE<3: PROMISEEEEEE!!!!!! (just to clarifiy this is her best freind cally who moved california she will be in thee book soon as she is moving in"
I Ignored her text and realised that the convo went on for like 10 minuets. shit im gonna be late . I jumped in the shower and hunted for a outfit. i finally decided to wear black skinny ripped jeans and a grey jumper. i dried my hair and curled it and started on my makeup. As im lazy i gave myself winged eyeliner and nude matte lipstick.
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i grabbed my backpack phone and headphones and a fruitbar. your probably thinking where are my parents? grandparents? pets? siblings? yeah i dont have any. my mom abused me all my life and abandoned me when i was 14 and my dad died when i was 5. yeah my life sucks but i guess there is nothing i can do about that. i hop in my car careful to look around i dont want anyone to see me in my car incase anyone does anything to it. i plug in my aux cord and start playing no type by rae sremmurd.
i start driving screaming the lyrics and jamming out.
"I Aint got no type nah bad bitches is the only thing i like you aint got no life cups with the ice and we do this every night i aint check the price i got it i make my own money so i spend it how i like im just living life and let my momma tell it n***a i aint living right" i yelled .
i pulled up outside starbucks and hurried inside . Grayson and Slutlotte were there they were litterely making out. SHIT! what if they see me. i covered my face with my hair and ordered a frappe A/N these are actually peng
"What's your name" the guy behind the counter asked . how he was fit. "Erm Hol-" "bitchslut her name is bitch slut" charlotte interupted i stepped back blushing. the guy looked at me sympathetically i looked at his name tag Cameron Dallas he was cute. "its holly" i whispered. he smiled at me as my drink gets passed to him he scribbled down my name. i looked at and it has his number on it. i go even redder as he winked at me i smiled back and asked for a napkin. i wrote my number down and gave it back to him. "bye cameron" "bye holly" i walked out watching graysons jaw clenched. i dont even know why i continue walking.
Out of nowhere im pinned to the ground and slapped in the face by charlotte, wtf i didnt even do anything. "you slut just go kill your self nobody likes you" she yelled in my face then kicked my stomach. i groaned and laid in the snow clutching my stomach . luckily my drink hadnt spelt. i picked myself up and walked to my car. i got in a drove off.
i parked quite a bit away from the school as i dont want anyone to vandalize my car. i walked their still clutching my stomach. i finally get to the gates and walked to class. i had sports shit no grayson his twin and charlotte were in sports with me. i got there and began to get dressed in the girls changing room duh i wouldnt go in the boys . charslut and all her freinds were wearing the sluttiest underwear possible.
i got dressed in the corner away from there hoeism and where nobody could see my scars . not just the ones from my self harm but the ones from my mom as well.some girls nudged eachother and looked at me i simply continued getting dressed and put a jumper over my sport kit.
we all gathered in the hall. miss fisherman began to speak. "today were playing girl v boy volleyball" Fuck even if i was on the girls team they would all still aim for me. instead of complaining i grab a ball. the lesson lasted for ages everybody just aimed for me.at last the lesson ended. next was maths with the twins.
i rushed to class after getting dressed. "so today were going to do projects you wont have time to finish it at school so youll have to go to eachothers house and i will be picking your groups now everybody stand up " everybody groaned probably cuz they have a chance to be landed with me.
"Mila and john , carys and nate ,lily and ethan ,abby and micah , mollyanne and kasey, rihannon and jack , jake and chloe , lauren and kendall, tiffany and amanda last but not least grayson and holly" my eyes widened grayson smirked. fuck no.
every body moved to their seats i slumped next to grayson.
"ill do the project and write your name on it we dont have to talk or anything" i rushed he is not coming to my apartment and i am not going to his house no way in hell not now now then . "im coming to your house tonight you better be their whats you adress" he said. i gave him a confused look and said my adress and started on the work he stared at my wrist for ages. "what happened to your wrist" he asked pointing to bandage with his pencil then dropping it. i heared him gasp he probably saw the scars through the rips in my jean. "oh um paper cuts" A/N sorry i had to
"And your legs" he asked by now i was fed up ."cat.. " i stuttered " what cat claws and peice of paper is that big" he asked raising one eyebrow. This boy cant take a hint for fuck sake. "they just are and are you going to continue interogating me or are you actually gonna do the motherfucking project" i yelled. i instantly regretted my choices as he could hurt me really bad. he simply shrugged and sinked down into his seat. he didnt talk for the rest of the lesson and i kind of felt bad. finally the bell went and released me from my misery.
