Paper cuts // G.D

2. Blades

warning this chap dosent contain self harm but is kinda sad so if you are affected by stuff like that please dont read the chapter and comment hate x <3 enjoy the chapter

Graysons p.o.v (thats a change for once)

ok so yeah i may have only invited her over cuz ethan told me to i was meant to take something of hers or som shit like that. and before you say im heartless i dont wanna do i loved her something about her  just pulls me closer but i have to listen to fucking ethan.

I arrived at her house and knocked on the door it took her a while to answer the door but she finally did and she looked stunning

i smiled at her and came in 

"do you want something to drink or nah " she asked  i shook my head "okay then lets get started upstairs" she seemed really nervous and walked up the stairs me following her. i sat on her bed. i sat down on her bed amd she closed the door and sat crossed legged on the carpet and started to get out all of her work . she suddenly stood up and  spotted a   silver thing in the corner and rushed to pick it up and put it in her draw. "what was that" i asked generally confused  .

" oh erm it a its i-is a tampon" she stuttered bluffing clearly lying . i raised an eyebrow and got out my project ideas. we worked for about an hour until i got bored and started asking again. "where are your family" i questioned " i dont have one actually" "yes you do" " no i dont" "everybody does" " yeah well i dont" " come on you must ha-" "WELL I DONT OK?" she yelled.

" sorry " i apolagised

"no  no its ok im gonna go get a drink" she said

" k imma go to the bathroom"

i wasnt really i was gonna look through her stuff or else ethan would think i was a pussy.  when i looked in the draws there wass a bunch of blades with blood on them and a booklet. even though the blades were cobered in crimson blood you could kind of see the names. one said grayson one said dad one mum one ethan . Mine was the bloodiest.

ive never felt more ashamed in ,my whole entire life.

i opened  up the booklet it said reasons why i hate my self

1.my scars are ugly

2.my bruises are ugly

3.im ugly

4. nobody loves me

5.my parents abuse me

6. im fat

7. nobody will ever love me

8. according to everbody i deserve to die

i couldnt read anymore as my eyes were blurring how ould i do this to another human being suddenly the door opened and holly stood there looking pissed.

A/N grays speech is in bold italics hollys is in normal

"err i-"

"decided to read my personal stuff and go through practically everything i own?" 

"im sorry hol-"

"get out now"

"Please im sor-"

she pulled up her sleeve

" YOU DID THIS TO ME THIS WAS YOUR CHOICE YOU COULD HAVE  FUCKING STOPPED"

by now tears were sliding down her cheeks and she had sunken to the floor sobbing. this made me feel like such a prick .

A/N i know this is not what holly looks like

i grapped her hands and pulled her up then kneeled down.

i held her wrist and began to kiss all her scars

"im* kiss * so * kiss * fucking * kiss * sorry " i said between kisses. i was crying tears dribbling down my face.

why did i do this to her i love her . wait what i just fucking realized i love holly.

i layed her down on her bed pulled the covers over her and clean her bathroom up then left. im not gonna do this to her anymore what so ever

hollys p.o.v

i woke up in my bed where did grayson go all i remember is him kissing my scars, omfg i think i love him.

END of chapter hope you guys liked it i know its a lil short i have writers block and this chap sucks ass but oh well can some one come up with a better cover please send it to me over insta my account is         .       .      .xgg_dolanx      .       .        . 

please vote ill try to update tomoz but i probs wont imma start a new book soon called vacation its also gonna be a grayson dolan fanfic i need to come up with a ethan dolan book also all the things that happens in this chap may affest to you all are beautiful dont worry if you are being bullied please contact me for support i will help you lot remember im always here if you need me xxxxxxxx x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x  x x x  x x x    x     x x x x  x x x  x x x  x  x  x x  x x  x x xx  x xx x x x x  x  x  xx  xx x  x x x  xx x x x x  xx x  x x x x   x x  x  x  x  x    x x  x  x x  x x xx  x x xx x x x x x  x x x x x x x x xx  x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x  x  x xx  x  xx x x  x x  x  x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x  x x

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