Life with the O2L boys. (with Connor Franta, Andrea Russett, Kian Lawley etc.)

Upsetting Trouble

*warning-explicit content below*

----Tayah's POV ----

I woke up with a wet towel on my forehead Connor and Andrea leaning over to me. The others were just pacing around the room worried. The press had left.

"Get the fuck away from me" I said pushing Connor away

"Okay I've had enough. Get up"

"What, why?"

"Up Up, Get up"

I got up giving him a dirty look I wasn't happy about this. He took me into the next small small room that could only fit about 10 people.

"What?"

"Tay, what's wrong with us?"

"Us? Are you sure there is still an us?"

"Tayah why are you being such a bitch?"

"Oh so I'm the bitch now huh? Are you forgetting something? you're relationship with 'RB'? "

"LISTEN. ALL I EVER DID WAS LOVE YOU BUT YOU NEVER LOVED ME LIKE I LOVED YOU" Connor screamed looking like he was about to cry

"Connor I- "

"NO, SERIOUSLY TAYAH. I CAN CLEARLY TELL YOU DON'T LOVE ME. SO I DON'T THINK THIS RELATIONSHIP SHOULD GO ON..."

"Connor?" There were tears falling from my eyes

"I can't do this. I can't break up with you. I just can't. I love you too much. How about we take a break and if we don't want each other no more we can break up officially "

I nodded tears just streaming down mine and his face. I hated myself. He walked out the room and I cried sitting back against the wall. I looked for something sharp anywhere but I couldn't find nothing. I just had to harm myself. it'll make me feel better. I had to use my nails. I scratched all along my arm whilst crying. I scratched till I was bleeding alot. I guessed they could hear me crying as they all ran in, except Connor, and just saw me crying. Andrea noticed I had been self-harming again so she got kian to carry me out and put me in a car back to the hotel.

When we got back I was sat with Kian still carrying me on the chair crying into his chest still. JC quickly grabbed a wet flannel to wash away the blood. The cuts were pretty bad so I guess my nails are sharp. Ricky wrapped a bandage around my arm. Andrea was sat infront of me telling me it was all gonna be okay. I was still crying. the tears were just flowing. I couldn't stop it. After 30 minutes of being comforted by them I had finally calmed down. I was just still while they all watched me making sure I was okay.

"Thank you guys "

"Yay, you're okay" Andrea said

"honestly love you guys. Well, I need to go shower"

"She's back" Sam said and they all laughed.

I got up and hugged each one of them thanking them. such lovely people. I showered to be fresh again for the party. I finished after 1 hour showering. I went into the room to change and Andrea was in there picking out her clothes with Kian while the others were watching tv.

"Are you sure you wanna go tonight?" Andrea asked

"Of course "

"Alright, whatever makes you happy babe"

Tonight was Cara Delevingne's formal themed birthday party and a load of youtubers had been invited including us. I was too excited. I loved Cara and everything about her.

I creamed my body trying not to remove my towel as Kian was in the room. but after struggling I finally wore my underwear and bra. I asked for help looking for clothes but I turned round to see Kian and Andrea snogging on the bed. I coughed to remind them I was there and didn't really want to see them exchange saliva.