Heart. Hope. Happiness. (Sequel to Live. Laugh. Love.) ***COMPLETED

Part 19 :-)

I am so sorry I have been updating late. School started back again :( Its been really hard on me. An extended part is next weekend so hopefully that will make up for this!

Thank you guys so much for everything. I really and truly never thought anyone would read this story. Live. Laugh. Love. began about a year ago and it has almost 18k reads and everyone is voting. I couldn't be more thankful.

ALSO.. keep giving me feedback. I REALLY need it and enjoy seeing it!

VOTE PLEASE

And finally.. you can read this :D

Justin's POV:

"So what have you been up to my man?" My old friend Lil Twist asked.

I thought for a second, "Why is this so hard to answer?" I laughed gently, but I quickly noticed Twiz was giving me a blank stare. I finally answered his orginal question, "I went on tour... and ever since I've been spending time with Carson."

"How is Carson?" Twiz interrogated, not even looking at me.

"She's... okay." I sighed and decided to continue, "I proposed and she said she needed to think. Honestly, I don't understand. We both knew this was coming so why not do it now. Fuck age.. why does it matter? She's all that matters to me and I want to premanatly make her mine. It makes me worry... What if there's someone else?"

"Bro.." He finally looked at me, "Carson is a smart girl. There's not someone else. She knows you're the one."

I stood up and violently kicked the chair I was sitting in. It slammed into the sound board, but I didn't give a shit if it was broken. I could be losing the love of my life. "Fuck everything." I growled, beginning to pace, "Everyone says the same thing, 'Oh, she just needs time, don't worry, its okay'." I mocked in a high pitched voice, "It isn't okay!" I punched my fist to the counter and broke down, tears filling up my eyes and flowing down my cheeks, "Why doesn't she love me like I love her?"

"Justin.." Twiz moved closer to me.

I shoved him away, "Just leave me alone! I want to be alone." I watched my friend as he left. I could see worry in his eyes. When he was gone, I continued my mental break down. I roughly kicked and punched almost every object in the room. My head was pounding, my heart was pounding. I was losing it. No one could fix me. Not even Carson. "Maybe I'll just be alone forever." I slid down the wall and pulled on my hair with both hands. "I don't need anyone. I just need my money. I don't even need my fans. I want to be alone forever." I ran out of tears and just sat there against the wall sobbing. My face absorbed the wetness and soon became sticky.

When I finally pulled myself together, I left the studio. I drove slowly. I didn't care about anything. I arrived in my driveway and went inside.

"Hi, baby!" Carson came around the corner and flashed a smile. I narrowed my eyes at her and shook my feelings away. I walked off into the living room and brushed past her. "Justin?" She called. "What's wrong?"

I turned around and clenched my fists, "Go away." I seethed between my teeth.

"What?" Carson looked confused, "What is going on?" She made the mistake of taking a step closer.

"I said..." I paused and raised my voice, "Get away!!"

"Justin, what is going on?"

"You really want to know? Because I'm sure you already know. You destroyed me. You don't love me like I love you! You've been playing me this whole time! You're playing me like every other girl! Every girl is the same. All they want is money or sex. You're the worst of them all! You wanted both! I gave them to you because I love you! I fell harder than I've ever fallen and you didn't help me back up. You've left me to die." I was out of breath, but I watched a tear shed from Carson's eye.

"Where did this come from? I love you, Justin. I love you more than life." Carson touched my face, but I grabbed her wrist and slung it from me.

"I said, Get away from me." I turned and walked into the living room. "Get out of this house. We're done. Forever this time."