Sparks Fly | A Miraxus Fan-Fiction

3: Time to Start Over

Several years had passed since Laxus left, and his words kept lingering in my mind even after all this time. I thought a lot about them, though about what I could've done differently, what I could've said differently. I play over all my actions time and time again, but none of it matters. None of it will bring him back. I thought a few times about going to find him, finding a way to reach out, but he made it very clear when he left that he wanted nothing to do with me.

I finally snapped out of my daydream, watching Gray and Natsu go at it as usual as I washed the bar top. Another typical day in the Fairy Tail guild, another argument or fight causing loud commotion and noise. Another incident of Erza breaking up the two boys and forcing them to knock it off. "Shut up you two." Erza says in a dark tone with a dark aura surrounding her. Natsu and Gray, cowering in fear, both hug each other and nod in agreement. "Y-Yes Ma'am!" They both respond nervously, clearly not wanting to face Titania's wrath today. Yup, just another typical day in Fairy Tail. Except, to me things have never been normal or typical. Things here in the guild have never been the same since that day. As much as I want them to be, I will never get back what has been lost. I turn around to put the rag away and find a pair of earmuffs, trying to drown out the noise a bit as the bustle of the guild hall continues.

They're Laxus' earmuffs. I always kept them with me, although I could never fully explain why when people asked. I don't why I miss him so much, but I do. I wouldn't even care if we were fighting, or insulting one another, I just wanted him here. His company, his voice, I would take anything I could get regardless of the nature behind it. But he wouldn't come back for me.

'I hate you Mirajane! I can't fucking stand you! I have never wanted to be in this guild with you so you know what? I'm glad I'm not stuck seeing your fucking face every damn day anymore! So just do me a fucking favor, and stay out of my life!'

Those words have echoed in my head all these years. I think about them constantly, I can't get them out of my head when I lay down to sleep at night. Why can't I let it go? No one else even notices he is gone. So why do I? "I take it the earmuffs and the long face are due to you missing your little arch enemy?" I turn around at the voice, only to see Erza taking a seat at the bar. I put the pair of ear muffs down under the bar, before grabbing a glass so I could serve her. "He wasn't my enemy, as much as he likes to think he was. I did try to be his friend Erza, I really did. But, he just hated me for no reason." I say, handing Erza some cake and a drink. "You never really know. You know, a lot of couples start out as enemies." Erza says taking a bite of the cake. I feel my cheeks start to burn as my face flushed red from her comment. "We aren't a couple!" I argue, feeling like my chest just dropped into my stomach. "Sure you aren't." Erza says, sarcasm evident in her voice. We're not a couple! I don't understand why she's acting like there was some underlying thing with us. Laxus hated me, he's always hated me and he's always going to hate me, and I'm never gonna know why. I just keep cleaning the bar top and try to forget it. Being a couple with Laxus? That's just ridiculous. He probably doesn't even remember who I am let alone think about me.

- X -

Finding work has been next to fucking impossible ever since I was kicked out of the guild. No matter where I go, it seems like all the good jobs are snatched up by guild members before I even get a fucking chance. I manage to grab another bag of jewel from some guy I helped in passing, before making my way back to the train station to find my next pay. If Mira were here she would probably yell at me for not thanking the guy. Ugh, and here I am doing this shit again. Why do I keep thinking about the stupid twerp? She should be the one I care about the least! After everything she did to me, you think I'd finally be happy to be rid of her. No more fighting, no more annoying insults, no more snobby comments. I don't have to constantly listen to her barking all the damn time.

I said I'm always gonna hate her and that's how it's gonna stay. I don't miss her! I'm happy I don't have to see her stupid face. I should be happy. But than again, I wonder what she looks like now. I wonder about how the guild is now and what's changed. It's been so long since- no. I don't care. I don't care about Fairy Tail, I don't care about Gramps, and I sure as fuck don't care about- "Laxus!!" Someone calling out my name pulls me from my thoughts. I turn around, shocked as my eyes land on the source. There's no way, it couldn't be them. It just couldn't be. "Hey Evergreen! Bixlow!" I yell, smiling as I hold a hand up and wave back. I walk over to them, sitting down at their table. "We missed you man! How have you been?" Bixlow asked, it was nice to see their faces again after all this time. "I've been good, I guess. This finding a job thing is driving me crazy. I never realized how important having a damn guild mark on your arm was until now." I stood up once more to hug my hold friends, feeling some relief to see some familiar faces after all this time. "Where's Freed?" I ask, taking note of the fact I had yet to see him. "He went on a mission with one of his other friends. It's like he's already bored of us!" They laughed from that, and I joined in on the laughter.

"You should come back to the guild for old times sake!" Bixlow exclaimed, but his excitement faded when he noticed my clear hesitance. I couldn't possibly go back, not after all this time. Besides, I doubt anyone from the guild wants to see me anyway. "Please?" Evergreen started begging and gripping my shirt, clearly trying to coax me. I couldn't go back to the guild, especially since- Wait, why do I care? It's not like Mirajane gets to dictate where I go or what I do. I'm not going back there for her. I'll go see Freed and the old man. It's not for Mira! "Sure, but only because you're twisting my damn arm here." Bixlow and Evergreen started jumping with excitement when I finally agreed. "Great let's go!" They yell in unison and drag me back to the guild.