golden days ˗ˏ'h.g ˎˊ˗

; 05

— "why don't you realize that you are the most important thing in my life and without you I would go out of my mind. Please, stay. For me."

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F i v e ; broken hearts and hospital vibes

{{ warning : story may contain sexual intercourse & may also contain strong language. This story also includes cutting, suicide & may trigger strong feelings. Story is rated— R; so read at your own risk. Enjoy }}
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M a n d y
Jacob just kept glaring at my balcony where Alex was about to kiss me and I was about to get my first kiss. I know how lame it sounds to not have kissed anyone yet at the age of sixteen. I went to sit down on my computer chair, Jacob went and sat down on my bed and looked at me with his hands folded.

"Jacob...give me a break. I just want to go to bed." I said with the thought of not sleeping tonight. My mind was completely empty, I felt like if I had been punched because I wouldn't be in my original home. The place I grew up in.

"Why huh? So you could see him again and let him kiss you!" He yelled as I took another deep breath trying to concentrate on not passing out because out of nowhere I felt like someone was choking me. I tried getting up and grabbing my pills and with Jacob yelling at me it wasn't helping.

Maybe that was the last thing I remember because everything turned black and I was on the floor now. I couldn't breath, it felt like someone was preventing me from breathing. Everything was black but I could hear just fine.

My thoughts than went back to all the memories of Alex bulling me, hurting me, making me cut. But soon were replaced with the new memories of us almost kissing.

"Daddy!" I heard giggling. I looked around and saw a little girl. She was playing with her father, mother and brother. And this wasn't just a little girl or family, it was me. It was my family. I looked at Jacob who was trying to catch the football dad had thrown him, I looked at myself to see I was playing as well.

These were the memories that made me cherish my life even if it involved sadness and broken hearts I knew it would all be worth it in the end. Than I saw a car, we all entered the car and Jacob just kept on giggling while I played with my teddy bear.

I than saw the moment when I was younger and realized how happy I was. I actually didn't care about what happened, everything just seemed so perfect. We were all now sitting one the couch watching a movie, dad smiling at us all.

Than all those memories seemed to flip and change into hurting, sad ones. I was hiding behind the counter when I saw dad yell at mom, he didn't seem his happy way. He seemed mad or maybe even out of it. He than slapped mom, she whimpered as he laughed and slurred a few words. "Fuck you and your family." And with that he walked out and left.

Mom stayed on the floor crying her heart out. When she got up I stayed behind the counter watching her go to Jacob and I's room. I looked at the door waiting for dad to come back but I just stood there watching mom grab things, while I didn't do anything.

She started yelling things but I was focused on the door. Waiting for daddy to come back, soon I saw Jacob and mom walk out the door. She looked back with tears falling down her face, she looked around once more as if searching for something.