Is he my true love? ❤️

You used me

Livni pov
I woke up and we were In Colorado the show was tomorrow I got out the restroom and saw nick sitting on the couch I sat next to him and layed my head on his shoulder he smiled at me and it was one of the most cutest smile I just want to grab his face and kiss it then do it I don't have a problem I looked at nick embarrassed and said you heard that he looked and me and nodded we stared at each other until he started to lean in I did to then our lips crashed together we were making out and it became a little heat we were cut off by Cameron coming in and saying hey Livni want to go out I looked at nick he did even look at me he just walked away I looked back at Cameron and said umm sure we went outside and I said where are we going he looked at me and said the park ok I said we went to the park and the first thing we did was play on the swing I couldn't walk but I still enjoyed my self we talked and then we went back into the tour bus when I got in it was silent then nick walked about the restroom and went out to the back I followed him and he looked at me with a disgusting it actually hurt but I let it slide so I called his name nick I said he didn't answer nick what wrong tell me I said he looked at me and said can you just get the fuck out I never FUCKING. Loved you I used you for sex hello you didn't notice a tear fell down my eye nick you don't mean that I said he looked at me and said yes I do mean it you're a FUCKING Slut and whore nobody likes you you were only dating all us guys for fame you're the biggest slut I've ever met he yelled at my face
I.loved.you.nick I said as I walked out the room and went to a bunk that no one was in I sat there quietly crying looking at all the pictures and videos the fans took then I tweeted out saying @bruhitslivni I loved you but apparently you just used me (that's not my real username my real one is @livnidominick) I got slit of replies saying what happen so I decided to go live one younow yo what's up guys I said what happen Livni are you ok I read out loud I sighed and said ok I am going to be honest I am not ok a guy I really liked and I thought he liked me back you know what let's talk in the restroom I went in and locked the door I read some comment and one of them caught my eye and it was nicks watching I started to cry when I read that I stoped and said ok so that guy he used me I really loved him I helped him thru his most personal and heart breaking problems I treated him better that I ever treated anyone he did the same to me and Cameron he invited me to the park even tho I can't walk with my foot cut is than I came back to talk to the guy I liked and he ignored me until I asked him what was wrong he called me these names that I don't want any guy calling you guys but he did it and he used after all and I couldn't continue tears fell out of my eyes I regret Doug. This I said as I pull out my razor I am sorry I am not perfect *cut* I am sorry I am not the one you wanted *cut* I am sorry I loved you *cut* I am sorry I had feelings *cut* I am sorry I waisted my time listening to your problems *cut* I am sorry I was hugging you as you cry and tell me what's wrong *cut* I am sorry I cared and love you *cut* I am sorry I had a heart *cut* I am sorry I was being myself this is all for you I said as I cried then one comment form nick it said suicidal freak I put my hands in my hair and pulled it I am sorry ok nick I just so FUCKING stupid I.. I don't know why I fucking cared for you when you fucking used me you know what guys I am done I am done Livni got in this world when nobody gives a shit about me and nick if you apologized to me and tell me you didn't mean anything it's all bullshit to me I don't fucking care what you have to say because I am done just know I love you guys and thank you for being a true fan I love you guys then I ended the broadcast I got my razor and started to cut I decided to stop and I put a bandage over the cuts I walked out the restroom and Zach looked at me with red eyes what I said why he asked Zach my life isn't perfect I am a suicidal freak I cut my wrist I am ugly nobody in the world cares about me so what's the whole point of living because out there there's at least one person that loves you and that person and change you into a better one Zach I am sorry but I just can't be here no more i and going to sleep ok he said and hugged me I sat on my bunk then then I fell asleep