Not Even Stars Last Forever (Avenged Sevenfold)

Chapter 17

Felicity's POV

I was shocked that Matt had shown up, clutching dinner and as I led him to the break room I had a million thoughts running through my head. Like why was he here?

As soon as I sat down he kissed me. Don't get me wrong, I loved it when he kissed me, I really did but I couldn't help but feel this was wrong, so wrong.

Matt must have sensed my hesitation and he explained a few things to me, starting with the fact that Emma and himself had broken up. I felt guilty, so guilty. I mean what if she found out about us? But worse, I felt guilty because I was glad, glad they'd broken up. I was a horrible person, I really was.

Matt reassured me that I had nothing to do with it, but still the guilt was there and it intensified as he explained to me that he wanted to be with me! Me of all people!

I was shocked I really was, in all honestly I hadn't seen it coming. I just thought Matt was playing with me, but as he pulled me into his arm's and kissed me, I felt my knee's go weak.

You couldn't kiss someone like that if you didn't care about them, you just couldn't.

"So what do you say Felicity." He murmured, pulling away. "Will you give me a chance? Give us a chance to be something amazing?"

I looked at him, taking a deep breath. "Is it a good idea Matt?" I asked him softly.

He groaned, pulling me to his chest. "Yes, yeah it is." He murmured. "It's the best idea I've had for a long time."

I smiled into his chest. I couldn't deny it, I liked him a lot and I did want to give him a chance, I did want to be with him, but the complications were a little frightening.

"How will it work?" I asked quietly, looking up at him.

"I have no idea Felicity." He said softly, tucking a loose strand of hair behind my ear. "But I'd at least like to try."

"Okay." I whispered, feeling nervous. Nervous about him, nervous about the whole thing, but it was Matt and I liked him, I couldn't help myself.

"Okay?" He asked smiling down at me.

I nodded. "Yes." I whispered. "Let's give it a chance."

"Oh god." He murmured, leaning down and kissing me and god he was doing it again, kissing me in a way that made my knee's go weak.

"Matt." I whispered against his lips.

"Yes?" He murmured back.

"Matt I'm at work." And as much as I didn't want his kiss to end, I also didn't want my Unit Manager walking in and finding me and a guy making out furiously in the break room.

"Oh god you're right." He murmured. "Let's eat."

I agreed and we sat down eating and just talking. It was nice, it really was, having him here, bringing me dinner. I felt a little spoilt, no man had ever done this for me before, not even dumbass Noah.

"Well." Matt said as we finished and I started to clean up. "I better let you get back to it."

I smiled and nodded. I didn't want to get back to it, I wanted to get my bag and leave with Matt, spend the rest of the evening with him.

"Yeah I better." I told him, looking at him.

"Well." He murmured, reaching out and pulling me to him. "I'll call you tomorrow, maybe we can do something tomorrow night."

"I'm working again." I whispered and I was but fuck I wished I wasn't.

He shrugged, kissing my nose. "I'll just have to bring dinner in again."

"Okay." I murmured as he leant down, kissing me again.

The kiss went on and on, actually it went on a while and I didn't want it to end, so I was a little disappointed when Matt eventually pulled away.

"I'll talk to you tomorrow." He murmured, brushing his lips across mine again before turning and leaving.

"I can't wait." I whispered to myself, standing in the break room, smiling like a loon.

I took a few minutes to get myself together and headed back to work. Honestly the rest of the shift flew by and I was pretty sure it was because I felt like I was walking on air. God, who would have thought that Matthew Sander's would have made me so happy? Certainly not me. But he did and I liked the feeling.

Finally it was over and I drove home with the same dumb smile on my face that I'd worn all night, but as I pulled into our drive my smile disappeared, Alia wasn't here.

God Alia. I hadn't even given her a thought when I'd agreed to give Matt a chance. What kind of friend was I?

What kind of a friend was she? She'd been ignoring me for day's anyway.

I got out of my car and went inside, turning on the light's and heading into the kitchen. I needed a hot chocolate, or a warm milk, something, I was excited and wide awake and I needed something to settle me down.

I glanced at the counter and noticed a note sitting there.

I read it quickly, smiling.

It was from Alia and she basically apologised for the way she'd been acting, mentioning a girl's day.

God I needed a girl's day, I really did. Hopefully we could do it Saturday, it was my next day off and by then I'd need a little retail therapy.

But maybe Matt would want to do something? I thought to myself, then I shook my head. No, I would not neglect my friends for a man, I wouldn't let myself.

I ended up just having a cold glass of milk and when I'd finished I went and had a shower. A long shower and I took my time, thinking. I did some of my best thinking in the shower and of course I was thinking about Matt, the only problem was all I could think about was how I couldn't wait until the next time I saw him. God, I was falling for him, I really was.

I got out, getting in my pyjama's and finally climbing into bed.

Alia still wasn't home and I couldn't help but wonder where she was? Two nights in a row she'd been out and I knew nothing, she wasn't telling me a thing.

My thoughts of Alia were interrupted as my suddenly beeped, and I rolled over, picking it up.

I hope the rest of your night went well and I can't wait to see you again. Sleep well xx

I smiled, reading it, then re-reading it. It was one of the sweetest messages I'd ever received.

I can't wait either and I hope you have sweet dreams xx

I bit my lip and pressed send.

I was laying my heart on the line, I just hoped it didn't get broken.