Break the rules (cake hoodings)

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L u k e

I jump out of bed and go to the bathroom. I get dress, wear my skinny jeans as usual. I look at my phone. Its nine in the morning. And suddenly my body collapsed. I'm on my knees.

Calum is probably kissing her right now. I get up and fix my hair once again. Like I don't care anymore, I just want to see him.

"Am I late?" After hug mali.

"He's in the back, he's panic." I don't understand. I run to the backyard and find him there. He stared at the ceiling. He didn't realize I'm coming.

"Hey." I'm standing far from him. He looked at me and grinned. He hugged me while I rub his back.

"I love you." Those words came out of his mouth, making me melt. I bury my face in the crook of his neck.

"Don't do this." I mumble to his tan skin.

He cupped my cheeks and led my lips to his. I pressed my lips softly. He licked my bottom lip and sucked it. I open my mouth slightly so he can entered with his tongue.

We pulled apart, taking a breath. I lean again and kiss his jaw, turn down to his neck. I find his sweatspot of his neck.

"Lu--key." He moaned my name.

I'm removing his suit while my lips still on his neck. I pull away because his hand is on my chest. Telling me to stop.

"We can't, luke you know how much I hate seeing you cry, but I have to do this." We lock our eyes.

"Just don't break up with me, I'll be alright." He kissed my forehead and rubbed it.

"I love you." Again with those words.

I feel my cheeks burning red. I just nod at him. He'll understand why I didn't say it back to him. I leave and go to my shop. My mom looked at me worridly as usual.

"Is everything okay?" She asked and rubbed my shoulder.

"Yeah, I let him go." I smile to my mom like everything is really okay. But no I can't let him go. I can't let him with somebody else.

"Cool, you should find someone else." She smiled, nudged my hand.

"I will mom, eventually." I lie. We're not even break up. I don't wanna.

"But I know luke, this will be hard for you, I swear you two love each other." Yeah we do love each other but not at the right time.

If I know his familly was homophobe, I wouldn't fall for him this deep. I need to stop thinking about this.