Girl Code

It's Annoying - Joe Summers

Why does everyone keep asking me if I like Antonio? When I say I don't, it means I don't! I already love someone and that person is Brittney.

It's really getting annoying. I mean, yesterday, Melanie came up to me and said, "Are you sure you don't like Antonio?"

I said "I'm sure."

"You can tell me Joe, I won't tell anyone. If you do, no one will judge you. What if you like Antonio but you don't know that you do?"

Frustration got over me, so I blurted out:

"I DON'T LIKE ANTONIO! Sheesh, why does everyone keep asking? If I like someone, I will tell you. And I don't care if you guys won't judge, he will and I know it. Just leave me alone."

I could tell that she was shook by my response. "I mean, I was only asking," Maria said.

"And I was just saying," I told her. "Can everyone just leave me alone? You don't know how I feel and it hurts to think that my friends think I like Antonio. He's the worst person on earth, I just despise him so much because he's always judging me on who I like, or on the things that I do. Any chance that I'd get to hit him, trust me, I would be more than willing to take that chance, even no matter how much trouble I might get in."

But to be honest, I don't even know how I feel about myself. I sometimes hate myself so much, because I'm always being by rejected by those I pour my heart out for. It makes me want to do some vital stuff to myself, and trust me, I already have.

But what can I do about it? I guess I'm just miserable that I will never be loved.