Who was really Kate?

It's painful!

( It's me on the picture)

The next day, I quickly prepared myself to pay those two girls a visit. And I also called Blake, because it would be a great occasion for him to ask them some questions. To our great surprise, they weren't at their house. " Shit!!!" I exclaimed, but he told me to keep cool and that we could talk to them another day. But I refused. Blake didn't understand something, maybe according to him, Kate is really dead and he thought that we couldn't save her, but I didn't think like that, although we couldn't save her, we could at least find out what or who had caused her death. " But you don't understand Amanda, I already told you that a car was about to hit me, and she pushed me to take my place, I was there, I saw what happened, believe me" he said, more anxious than embarassed. " But why didn't it stop? he had to stop, especially when Kate pushed you, it had the time to... to... stop," I couldn't even talk, and I was already crying more than a baby. I was ashamed of crying so much. I couldn't believe that all this was an accident, I believed that it was something else, but I was sure of nothing. I had so much pain. She's my sister, I couldn't accept that a dear person like her could have been touched by death.

I wanted to run, to run away, to try to catch her and never let her go. Unluckily, I think she never knew how much I loved her, and how much I'll always do. Even if I had to leave Blake behind, I would have accepted because I love her more than anything, more than anyone, even... even more than myself. I know that in every chapter I mention that I miss her, but all the people who have lost their sister may feel the same as I feel. And I know that it's also hard for Blake for having lost his girlfriend. But you know, Kate, even though she passed her days with Blake, and dreamed of having boyfriends( like me, except that her dream became true, compared to mine), she never wanted to get married nor to have children. ok, I've mentioned only the part where she didn't want to have children, but how to have a child, no need to say, she was... let's say an expert or whatever. And I always asked myself if she was still virgin after her death. I had even asked Blake, but he promised me that he never did it, he wanted but she told him to respect that part. OMG! it means that she was still virgin!! I don't want to be a bad girl, but it's a surprise, I mean, Kate was a not that slut, but she was not that good girl too.

Anyway, Blake accompanied me home,I don't know why each time that I had to meet him, in the end, I had to cry like a little baby. But of course, Blake understood me. But even that, I had to change my behaviour otherwise he would take me as a fool or like an immature girl, even if it's a bit true. But when I told him all that, he told me that I didn't have to change because he could understand what I felt, and also told me that even when he would be alone, he would cry also. I think it's the first secret he ever told me, but I guessed he told more to Jennah. Btw, I forgot to tell you about her, it's fine, I'm gonna talk to you about it in the next chapter...