Who was really Kate?

Why did she leave?

I was scared and I didn't want to face him. And I also realised how much I was silly , I had to tell him what I knew about Kate. But I was so scared that I did the wrong thing. My sister would have slapped me if she was there. Anyway, the next day, while talking to Heiley, I saw Blake and his band walking a few metres away from us. I wanted to run towards him, to apologize, but I knew how he would react, and that prevented me from doing so. So after school, as he was alone, I went towards him, apologised and took him by the hand but instead of following me, he pushed me and ordered me to go away unless I told him how I knew Kate.

 After a deep breath, I told him all the truth, and told him also that I was her sister, " I'm so sorry, Blake, I know how much you loved her, here is the picture both of you took 2 years ago," I handed the picture over to him. He stayed quiet, but I could read the sadness he had in his eyes. Suddenly, I saw a tear running down his cheek, " I loved her, Amanda, and I still do, she's my everything, I promised not to leave her, but I think she's the one who left," he said, closing his eyes, " And Jennah? Don't you love her?and if you've passed 4 months with her, what about the other months?". He took a deep breath and started telling me everything. He told me that for 1 year and 8 months he had nobody, he wanted nobody, but Jennah , who was his close friend, always helped him to overcome that situation, this is how they started loving each other, but deep inside, Kate was his only love, the one he loved the most. He sat down, eyes full of tears, he was not even ashamed of crying in front of me.

 Well, I wanted to cry as well, to share his sadness, but I knew also that I wasn't his friend, and that it was a moment of silence between only my sister and him. But before leaving, he asked me if he could keep the picture for himself. " But what will you do if Jennah finds it?" I asked, " Jennah is not jealous, as I told you , she was my close friend, She knows and understands that I still love Kate. You know... each night, I'm thinking about how she died, and the worst is that I was with her, when I was buying flowers and chocolates for the on the valentines' day. When she saw them, he burst out crying as she was so touched. I hugged her a lot, it was the most wonderful day of life, until it came, as we were walking along the streets, we were so happy, we crossed the road carelessly and without knowing that a car was coming towards us, it was about to hit me when she pushed me and then was hit at my place only to save me. I was so shocked by this, but she didn't realise something, although  she went away only to save me, she is free now, free from everything, whereas me, I'm blocked, I think I'm in a jail and I will never get out, I may smile but I cry, I just know how to hide it, every night I think of this, it never gets out of my mind, I miss her Amanda, really, I miss her, this is why I told Jennah that if she wanted to be with me, we would never celebrate the valentines' day, and she agreed cuz you know that she died on that day, so..." " Yes I know Blake, I'm really sorry for that, my sister still loves you Blake, even from where she is, don't worry about it, I miss her too, she's my sister, and now I'm the only child of my family, it's very hard to live without someone like her, I love her, I miss her, like you do". We were talking too much that we didn't even realise that it was very late, but I was happy that we were ... let's say good friends and we started talking more often, but only about Kate. I admit that I would have liked to talk about something else as each time that we were talking about her, I felt like I wanted to cry. But what do you want, it's life.

 So, after that long conversation, I went home, exhausted, and as if it was not enough, my phone started ringing. I didn't have the force to take it. I took a bath and when I came to see who it was, I saw 23 missed calls from Heiley, and a message saying, " Come to my house, now, it's important," I didn't know what it was, so I decided to go straight to her house because when her mood is off, we must do what she wants, otherwise it will turn bad, really really bad.