pretty boys don't cry

reasons

chapter one;

I sat in my room, staring at the ceiling. It was a beautiful day with the sun lighting up my room. My mom and dad were quiet and my little sister wasn't bothering me. It was just the way I liked it.

I got up and threw some comfortable sweats on and quietly opened my door hoping no one would hear me. I walked out slowly and tip-toed to the bathroom.

"STEVEN!!!!" My little sister yelled and came running towards me. I shooshed her as quietly as I could but when she kept being loud I picked her up and put her in her room and closed the door. I didn't want my parents yelling at me this morning.

"Steven." I turned around to see my dad looking more pissed than usual. I gulped and took a deep breathe. "Did you really just lock your screaming sister in her bedroom?" I cursed under my breathe and looked away from my dad. "Answer me."

"Dad, I didn't do that. She was screaming and I had to quiet her down just in case you guys were asleep." I answered. My dad walks towards me and pushes me against the wall where he holds a fist to my face. I gulp even harder. He threw my down and I run to my bedroom and slam my door.

I threw myself on my bed and cried. This is why I tried to avoid my parents and this is why I tried to avoid my little sister.

《school hours》

I looked like shit today at school. My hair was nappy, I was wearing sweats and an ugly sweater and old ruggish converse from years ago. I hardly had any friends. Only one person actually talked to me.

"Hey steven!!" I hear Gabby Shurly yell. I turn around and run to give her a hug. "Whoa bud, what happened?"

"I had the worst morning." I mumble. I follow her eyes to where she is looking up and down my body at my horrific clothing.

"Awe, steveyyy." She says. She leans in for another hug and I almost burst into tears. "If you need anything, let me know. I gotta get to class." She takes off running and I'm left alone outside. I stare at everyone that walks by and slowly sit down at an empty tree branch underneath a shady tree.

I pull out a cigarette and light it up.

"Hey dude. Can I hit that?" I look up to see an emo-scenish kid. He was cute and looked a little shy.

"Sure." I mumble. I hand him the cigarette and he sits down next to me.

"Why are you sitting alone? This is high school man, make some friends." He says. I roll my eyes in frustration. "Hey, don't get mad. I'm trying to help you out." I smile and then laugh.

"It's not that easy. I'm awkward and shy and ugly and I do dumb things." I say.

He laughs. "You gotta get outta your comfort zone man." He hands me back the cig and walks away. I watch him leave.

《after school》

"STEVEY!!" I hear Gabby call my name. I turn around and run to her. "Stevey, where were you in class?" She asks.

"Uhh, I was busy. I didn't go to my morning classes at all."

"You skipped again??" I could her the tone in Gabbys voice getting annoyed and somewhat angry. "This is exactly why you're failing my dude." She pats my back and runs off to the bus.

I gather up my things and start walking.

"Hey! You! Pretty boy!" Someone yelled. I didn't bother to turn around because I knew it wasn't for me. "Pretty boy with the ugly sweats!!" I stop and curse under my breathe. I slowly turn around to see a group of preps. I freaked out and than turned back around and walked faster. "Pretty boy, don't be shy!! Come here!!" There were many voices, both guys and girls.

I continued to walk faster but I than heard running footsteps getting closer. My heart started racing. "shit" I mumble.

"Hey, pretty boy. don't be scared, we don't bite." One of the guys said.

"Awe, we just wanna be friends." A smoking hot girl said. I blushed and freaked out even more. My face was hotter than molting lava. "You're adorable. You could be one of us.. ya know, we have some killer parties."

I stood there as every one of the preps circled around me. "Now pretty boy, You can be one of us. You just have to say one thing." A guy says as I gulp. "You have to say 'My dick is small' and we will let you in with us. Don't worry, we're not going to do anything bad. Maybe just post it online and  whatnot but nothing terrible. c'mon, I know you want to be one of us pretty boy." I freaked and and started running for dear life. I ran faster than I've ever ran in my entire life. "GET EM"

And at that moment, I was being chased by the preps.

《back home》

When I made it home, I ran inside and up to my bedroom. I looked out the window where the preps were down the street looking either direction trying to find me. I opened the mini fridge that stood in my room and grabbed cold water and drunk it all in less than a minute. I was out of breathe and my heart was racing.

I threw myself on my bed and cried.