Touched By an Angel | BaekSoo

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Kyungsoo felt numb as he stared at the two graves. A car accident.

He wanted to cry. He really did, but his eyes stayed dry. He waited for it, but it didn't come

He felt mortified by himself. He's standing in front of his parents' graves and not so much as a single tear is rolling off his cheeks. So many other people around him were able to cry, but he, Kyungsoo, their only son, wasn't able to even make a sound as he stared at their dead bodies in identical coffins.

He was in a sort of daze until he felt a squeeze on his right hand. "Kyungsoo, are you all right?", Baekhyun asked him, worry present both in his words and in his eyes. The younger shook his head no looking down.

"I didn't want them to die, Baekhyun. I know that I might've thought differently about this 5 years ago, but I didn't mean it. I never did. They didn't deserve to die. I didn't even give them the chance to make up to me when they tried. All I did was shut them out and now this happened...", Kyungsoo looked down, biting his lips as he could finally feel his eyes stinging. "I know it's selfish, but I wanted my last memories of them to be happy", Kyungsoo said in between sobs. "I wanted to remember them as the parents who accepted me back into their lives." The tears kept on coming. He could no longer hold it back as Baekhyun hugged him tightly. All the times he felt frustrated and held his tears in suddenly burst and he wasn't able to stop it.

"It isn't selfish–", Baekhyun said as he wiped away the tears that rolled down the other's cheeks. "–and if it somehow helps, I'm sure they love and watch over you now."

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"Are you sure you're going to be okay out here alone?", Baekhyun asked as he stood in front of the gate. He was holding onto his suitcase in one hand and held Kyungsoo's hand in the other.

"I'll be able to handle myself, Baekki. After all, I'm the one who cooks in the house. You'd burn the house down if it wasn't for me!", Kyungsoo said, smiling widely. He felt sad for sure, but this was a great opportunity for Baekhyun's career as a singer. On top of that, he would only be away for a few years and they could always video call.

"I know, I know. But I just can't help feeling that something's gonna go terribly wrong and you'll end up hurting yourself. You know you aren't the most stable angel out there", Baekhyun said staring into the younger's eyes. "Promise me you won't hurt yourself while I'm in the US."

"I promise", Kyungsoo said sealing it with a kiss. Baekhyun cried, but Kyungsoo managed to stay strong and keep smiling until the older was out of sight. He was alone again and the loneliness was already nibbling his fingers. How is it possible to love someone so much, it hurts when they leave. He had to be strong though and know that Baekhyun no matter where he was, loves him and cares about him.

Driving home in silence was something he was used to already. Kyungsoo often stayed in the bakery to prepare for the next morning, but entering the house and not hearing music blast through speakers was something he would have to get used to. He walked into the house he and Baekhyun bought after his parents died and heard the distant humming of the TV he forgot to turn off. He didn't turn it off because he was sure the silence would kill him. He needed the noise. He needed comfort.

He needed Baekhyun.

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Double update! Since I was home all day I was able to write more chapters. I feel like this story will probably be ending at around 8-10 chapters because I really wanna keep it short. I kinda feel bad about making this so Kyungsoo-centric with only a side of Baekhyun, but I feel like I really couldn't have written it in any other way...

So anyway, I still feel like shit and I don't think imma be going to school tomorrow either, but idrk. I already missed so much class ㅠ.ㅠ

Hope you enjoyed reading!

Love,
Guido

11/15/'16