Touched By an Angel | BaekSoo

six

Everything was falling apart for Kyungsoo. He was absent-minded in meetings and the Busan and Daegu branches were financially unstable. He was able to open the store in Tokyo, but it wasn't received nearly as good as it was in Seoul. A lot of his partners had backed out and he was now practically at it on his own. It has been 9 months and no update has been given about Baekhyun and Kyungsoo has still not gotten over it. How could he? He's known the man since he was in high school. He had a relationship of almost 10 years with this man.

Kyungsoo had gotten depressed and has been thinking about death a lot. What does it matter anyway, right? He didn't have anything to fight for, he didn't have anyone to support him and his business wasn't doing well either.

He had told Jongin about it and as any friend would, the younger told his hyung to not let his 'temporary misfortune' discourage him. He didn't come this far, just to let it go, right? Kyungsoo wanted to agree, he really did, but despite his efforts to pick his life up, he would always fall back down. He didn't like this, however. He didn't want to live in misery. He didn't want to cry himself to sleep. He certainly didn't want to live without the only person he has ever truly loved.

One night Kyungsoo made up his mind. He was more than determined to do this. His plan was made and nothing could go wrong. He took his filled notebook and flipped to the last page to see whether it was empty or not. He decided to write down how he felt. He wrote a letter to Baekhyun.

'Dear Baekhyun

You would probably scold me for this. I can already see it, you angrily shouting at me and well, I don't particularly blame you for it. You're probably thinking that I'm being stupid. "Go on with your life without me!" , You would say. Well, that's easier said than done.

You know, in the two years that you were gone I never stopped loving you. It doesn't matter if those around me were tempting, but I only thought about you. Everything I did was for you. From moving in with you to making this decision.

Remember when we first met in high school. You know, you were the awkward new kid who would always smile at everyone. It was saddening to see everyone pick on you, you know, being half an angel and all. Remember how you were puking in the toilets after being beaten up by those jerks and that I got so angry, they landed in the hospital with broken limbs. Remember when you first visited and I made you those souffle pancakes. You said: "With these cooking skills, I could fall in love with you." Little did I know you were about to confess to me. Remember when we would go to the park, sit on the hill under the 'big oak tree'. You would softly sing while I laid my head on your thighs. Well, it wasn't an oak tree that's what's for sure, but at those moments I always saw a future with you.

You know, I don't know how to explain myself, but I would like to apologize to you first. I broke our promise. I know you told me not do anything crazy if something happened to you, but here I am now.

I hope I'll meet you in another life. As humans, as plants, as animals, as inanimate objects,...

As long as I'll meet you again I'll be alright.

Goodbye,
Kyungsoo

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I am greatly unsatisfied with this.

Initially I was planning to end this here, but as I thought about it some more, there were some things I would like to discuss in this story that I couldn't do just yet. Therefore this book is split in two parts. Next chapter will be the last chapter of act one: Kyungsoo's story after that act two: Baekhyun's story begins.

Hope you enjoyed reading!

Love,
Guido

11/21/'16