I wish that I could love myself. I wish that I could be happy. I wish that I could enjoy being underweight instead of wanting to be skinnier. I wish I could eat ice cream and pop tarts in general, or without feeling guilty. I regret all of the things I've done to myself. Limiting sugar, putting a complete ban on soda even though I love it, and practically dieting. I wish I could look in my mirror and think 'wow, I'm so beautiful!' but instead I look in the mirror and feel slightly disappointed, not because I'm 'super ugly' I just wish I looked different. I'm sorry for making such depressing chapters, I just wish I could love myself and see myself from someone else's point of view. Maybe then I would except myself.
