Yaoi One Shots

Hyperventilate (KandaxAllen)

Disclaimer: I don't own the characters from D.Gray Man. But of course, you knew that.

This one will be a songfic. Before hand, I'll tell you that the song is Pain by Three Days Grace. (a/n: aren't they just do perf ?)

Also, I'm not sure if Allen's name is spelt Alan or Allen. So bear with me ?



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Kanda's POV
I stared at Allen. Wondering if I should have said something or not. After all, the Baka moyashi* hasn't been bouncing off the walls like he should've been. He just sat there, his head bowed in..sadness ? Anger ? I wasn't sure. I wanted to ask, but my pride knew better than that.

Regular POV
Kanda's hair was long, pulled into the usual ponytail he wore it in with his bangs framing the sides of his face. He didn't have on his uniform and instead wore a plain black shirt with black fitted jeans. He sat on the bed in his room while Allen sat in chair across from him, head bowed silently to the cold tiled floors.

Kanda itched to say something, anything to get the younger boy to speak, but his pride kept his mouth glued shut. Allen's hands sat dejectedly in his lap, not moving. His skin was pale, paler than usual. His snow colored hair was messed from whatever it was he had been doing.

Allen wore one of Kanda's shirts. The crisp white shirt came to his thighs and hung off his red tinted shoulders. Kanda had to admit in his head that he did look rather cute, had he not been acting the way he was..

The white haired boy usually was preppy, happy, and cheerful. He never really sat down and kept his voice high above a whisper almost in any situation.

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all..

Kanda thought that Allen was just having a bad day, or still upset from their argument from earlier. He hadn't been the most faithful to his moyashi..Of course, Allen knew. But that didn't help that it hurt his heart each time Kanda had cheated on him.

Kanda fiddled with his hands nervously, wanting nothing more than to stop the pain in his head. Had he messed up to badly ? Would Allen even consider trying to rekindle their relationship again ? Maybe he had fucked up to many times..

You're sick of feeling numb,
You're not the only one
I'll take you by the hand and I'll show you a world you can understand

This life is filled with hurt,
when happiness doesn't work

Trust me,
And take my hand,
When the lights go out you'll understand.

Allen still refused to look up, his hands were now digging into his own thighs. His eyes were open now, though blood red. Kanda shot up and wanted to reach out to Allen, knowing what was about to happen. But his pride held him back. Damn it, why couldn't he just be..normal ?

Die, you're worthless.
Kanda doesn't want a worthless piece of shit..
You're hardly his age
You can't please him
Why don't you just fuck off

The hurtful words cut deep into Allen's heart, fraying at the flesh of his heart. He started to hyperventilate. His brain was processing to many thoughts at one time, his breath picked up quicker and quicker.

Anger and agony,
Are better than misery
Trust me,
I've got a plan.
When the lights go out you'll understand..

Kanda ran over to Allen at that time, tilting his chin up. "Moyashi !" He looked over for something he could get Allen to breathe into and get his breathing back to normal. Successfully pulling out a orange paper bag, he cups it to Allen's mouth and forces him to breathe in and out.

Slowly, Allen's breaths were normal and labored. Kanda sighed and hugged Allen. "K-kanda ? They want me dead..the voices.." He felt bad for causing the mental damage on Allen that he was. He silently chanted in his head that this would be the last time that he would ever hurt Allen.

(I know, I know, I know, I know)
I know that you're wounded
(You know, you know, you know, you know)
That I'm here to save you
(You know, you know, you know, you know)
I'm always here for you
(I know, I know, I know, I know)
That you'll thank me later..

Kanda knew that he was hurting Allen mentally, he'd have to stop. He didn't like the way that it made Allen, or how it made him feel either. Allen wraps his arms around Kanda's waist and cries his best not to sob.

"I'm...sorry Allen. I haven't been honest with you and..I'm going to stop. Alright ? Just work with me for a bit..I'm going to stop." Allen nodded against Kanda's stomach and pulled him impossibly closer. "Just make the voices stop Yuu.."

Kanda sighed at the use of his real name and picked up Allen, carrying him to his bed. Right now, they both needed rest. He would face his mistakes later. Allen slept next to kanda silently.

His pale skin shined in contrast with the moonlight peaking from Kanda's window. From then it was decided. There was no other for kanda, and he was content with Allen.

Besides...no one could compare with his moyashi. He thought as he pressed his lips to Allen's, making him stir. "I love you..Bean sprout." He smirked to himself as Allen blushed in his sleep and pulled himself closer to kanda.

"Love..too Yuu-chan."

The voices were gone, and his Allen was back. And that's all that really mattered.

His pain was gone.

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It was crappy I know I know, I needed to vent..I had no one to vent to.

By the way, I skipped the chorus, because well. I didn't feel like writing it.

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