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Brandon's POV
"You a damn fool you know that?" My brother said to me.
"You've been telling me that for the longest Ant." I said as I sat in front of my computer trying to find out where the hell Imani could be.
"I know I have and everyday you prove me correct. Over and over, and over again." He chuckled.
"Listen, I just got to find Imani. I did what Mommy was saying, I gave her space and time. This shit stressing me out. I don't know if she okay, I don't know if the baby good."
"You know that she and the baby are just fine and ma know where she at. You just want control." Curtis said calling my card as he came in the room.
"I do not need your shit." I huffed.
"You dead ass wrong bruh. Come on you always popping shit about being grown and a man and what the fuck not, A man owns up to what the fuck he did wrong. Had you done that, and put your damn pride aside you would know where Mani and the baby was."
"Fuck you." I said and he nodded.
"Brandon he right, you was wrong in this situation. Maybe that is part of the reason why you can't find her, God know your ass aint ready to take the part you play in this situation."
I sighed. "I know I fucked up Alright?" I said. "It's almost been a month. Mani almost four months pregnant. You know what is happening with her right now? She needs somebody there with her and she not even answering me." I sighed.
"We gonna find her." Ant said, "Right C?"
He nodded. "Yeah, I'm gonna help." He sat down next to me and did some shit on his computer. His hands were moving too fast for me to really understand what was happening.
"So when we find her, what you gonna try to do?" Ant asked me.
"Obviously be there for her and our baby. I don't know if she fucking with me after all I did." I wiped my hands down my face.
I was used to being around her everyday. Having her glide around the house and chill. Even though we weren't together it made me feel good. She has to have love for me if she was staying there and helping me out like she was and my dumb ass was gone.
I don't know why I always allowed my damn pride and ego to get in the way of what I wanted for myself. I know that Imani is the only woman for me, and here I was treating her like shit. We both fucked up in our relationship and I was too in my feelings to realize that she was just trying to make shit better.
I was a dumb ass like my pops said. I should have learned from the mistakes I witnessed him make when I was a kid and applied it to my own situation. Work smarter, not harder. Now more then ever that statement makes sense.
I sighed getting out of my thoughts and back to thinking. I had to get back to me what matters most. Imani and my child.
Imani's POV
"Hello?" I said answering my phone. It was my Mommy. Over these past few weeks she apologized to me about everything and I forgave her. More now than ever I need her. I am in fact on the road to becoming a mother myself, and I feel like mending the relationship with her is apart of that.
"Hey Mommy's girl." she smiled into the camera and I laughed.
"Her Mommy."
"What you doing baby?" she asked looking over her glasses.
"Well, I was just putting up the stuff I got for the baby Thanks to you and Mrs. V." I said.
I don't have a clue as to what I am having and of course my mom and Mrs. V were out shopping already."
"What?" she asked frowning
"What's wrong Mama?" I asked her
"I thought you said you were gonna have a better living situation in a short while." she fussed.
I sighed. " Ma,-"
"No Ma me Imani. That is a on the boarder of an entire different state and I need to be close to my grandbaby." she fused.
"I will bring the baby to visit. It's so peaceful."
" So what if you go into labor?" she asked
"I have a doula and a hospital near by" I told her.
" You keep on running. "
"What? No I am not!" I said
"Yes,but either or Brandon is gonna have to be there and going some place far like where you are and shunning him out of the process of you carrying his child is wrong. Yes he hurt you but just like he is stunting the growth of yall relationship, so are you." She told me.
"I know Ma but it's just so hard." I sighed.
"You are a grown ass woman one, and two you have dealt with far, far worse." She encouraged me. "It is time to put on your big girl panties, and determine what you wanna do and how you wanna do it, and now because you are a mother you have to think of how it is gonna effect your life, Brandon and my little fat baby's life too." she said and I nodded.
My mom was one thousand percent right, this is no longer about Imani and what Imani wants only. I have life growing inside of me. A beautiful child made out of love and I can't be selfish to allow miscommunication be the reason why my child doesn't have what I had growing up. That by no means imply me getting back with Brandon, I can only try and do my part. I can not force him to act right or forgive me. That is impossible and I'm not even in the mood to try. If Brandon wants to talk to me, I will let him, to clear the air and try to salvage our relationship, even if it is only as friends for our child.
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