Shattered Colors

Ode to us: a rant poem

(Note: this is not the greatest one, but I had to get this out. Enjoy.)

Maybe I am drunk
I'm drunk with love and anger
Trying too hard for you to like me
My heart skips a beat.

But its enough.
This wont be some bullshit poem about me as a victim.
This wont be a sappy love song about you being fucking gods
Because youre not.
But neither am I.

This is an ode.
And ode to our friendship.
And ode to me fucking crying in the corner while you just ignore.
An ode about you being happy while Im just being a bore.

An ode to sunken ships that my mind is right now.
And an ode about how fragile we are.

Im done being nice and quiet
Hiding my real self
I want tables to turn
So I can finally awake this flame

I want to scream, yell
Mess shit around
Throw everything Ive worked on in the wind

I want to crush, punch
I want to let it all out
No fear, no tears
Just me and my life.

Too bad that
Im now controlled by my own emotions
And no matter what I do
I just cant let you all go.