Forever A Fighter

Chapter 14:

Christina's POV:

****2 Weeks later***

It had Been 2 weeks since I saw Harry two freaking weeks, well 2 weeks since he thinks he saw me he really saw me talked to me laughed with me everyday. I Hated lying to him not telling him I was the girl he was in love with I was the girl in the mask that he couldn't see behind But he already knew me better than anyone ever would. I wanted to tell him God I wanted to tell him but I wasn't ready not yet.

Today was a Saturday siting on my bed i listened to cold play blast though my phone speaker. Taping to the beat as i worked on my pre cal homework for school. Sighing as i checked the last problem i put away my books and layed back on my bed and followed the pattern on the ceiling with my eyes as thoughts went though my head.

What was i gonna do? it was to risky to tell him who i was to tell anyone who i was. It would be safer to leave it how it was make sure he never found out keep him away, but...i didn't want him to stay away i wanted to walk around the park at night with him to laugh and joke with him to have movie nights with him to watch him mess around with the twins.... to stop hiding from him.

I didn't know what to do i've tried to stay away i really have but its just not working i cant say away from him... he makes me feel things i haven't felt in years, and call me selfish but i don't want those feelings to go away.

I wanted him all for myself i wanted to be the only one he thought of the only one he held in his arms. I wanted to be called his girl i wanted to be the one all the girls looked at and glared because he was mine and only mine. I didn't know what to do as much as i hated the idea i knew i had to let him go it was the only way to keep him safe... if he knew who i was people could get hurt and not just the ones i love but the ones he loves to.

I couldn't do that to him i couldn't ruin another life like mine was. I knew what its like to lose someone to these people and i wouldn't put that on anyone. Memories of that night ran though my head. Tears ran down my flushed checks as more and more memories came into my mind.

I Quietly sobbed alone into my room i picked up a lamp and threw it at a wall screaming out my pain falling to my knees grabbing my head and crying louder. I felt small hands on my back and looked up and saw the worried face of the twins. DD raised her little hands and whipped the tears rolling down my face away

" Don't be sad sissy please don't be sad," He bottom lip quivered

i brought her in my arms " I'm sorry baby I'm just missing mommy." she looked up with her doe eyes wide

" but you said not to cry when we left mommy you told us we had to be strong," I smiled softly

" Yes but sometimes its okay to cry when you miss the people you love and crying doesnt make you weak babygirl even the strongest of us have to cry some of the time," I hugged her tight and watched as my brother shuffled foot to foot his eyes rimmed red he was trying not to cry he was trying to be strong for his sisters.

"come here little man," I held open my arms and grunted as his little body rammed into me sobbing

Shhhing him I ran my fingers though his hair.