Forever

Chapter 10;

I still felt different though, I didn't feel like the same Passion anymore, nor a grown or more mature Passion of me. Even though I remember exactly who I am, who I was, for some reason I feel like I don't fit, but why?

I sat there starring at my lunch on the wooden table, Greyson waiting for me to to come back to life. "Yoohoo, earth to Pass" He waved his hand in front of my face, must have been zoned out for too long. "What!" I snapped out of my thoughts. "Finally." He mumbled underneath his breath. I raised a brow at him as he smiled innocently. "So, you seem to be very unfocused lately, whats wrong?" He asked.

"Nothing." I answered. He gave me a straight face before sighing and saying, "Really Pass? I know my best friend. Come on tell me, whats wrong?" 

I hesitated a little bit, but maybe telling him like how I used to do would make me feel the same again. "Well, its just that even though i have all my memories back now, I still don't feel the same. I don't. I feel like there is something I need to know still, yet I have all my memories back. I feel like I'm at fault for something" I looked at him.

He shifted his eyes to the side. He knew something, that I didn't, didn't he? That something that I so badly want and need to know, but will he tell me?

"GREYSON! I WANT TO FEEL LIKE MYSELF AGAIN!" I yelled in frustration. His eyes widen at my sudden outburst. "You are yourself." He said sincerely to me. I looked him in the eye, he could tell that i was frustrated. "No, I know I am, but after my accident I don't feel the same, something I need to know is missing, and it has nothing to do with my memories, I-it's like. A hunch! A hunch I'm getting."

He shifted his eyes to the side, thinking for half a second before looking back at me and saying, "How do you know this will make you feel like yourself again if it has nothing to do with your memories that you now have back." 

I answered, "Because I get this hunch that, this, this information that I don't know will somehow drive me back to that feeling, make me feel myself, I feel lost but I know I'm not. I feel like I need to be found, yet I already am." I paused for a second. "You understand me? Like I know there is nothing wrong, i feel like it, its like an illusion my brain is having and it wont stop until I find out what that information I've been itching to know is."

Greyson starring down at the floor the whole time I was talking finally looked up at me and said, "You really want to know?"

I nodded my head.

He let out a scoff before gently moving his hair out of his face, before finally speaking,

"Well...."