Dealing with Mine(Lauren/You)

Mocking Victory

She is beautiful.

And in her eyes, I see what could have been.

Now, that is gone.

And I can't help feeling hurt.

I woke up in a room with only Camila sitting in front of me, dried tears painted on her face. I could feel my heart panging for the sight of Lauren. I was naive to think she would be besides me after everything.

My eyelids felt heavy and my chest was slowly rising and falling, following the rhythm of a ticking clock. My lungs were struggling to capture the air around me. I was laying still on a plush surface, until an unsettling feeling ran throughout the length of my throat.

Before Camila could utter a single word I rushed to the trash can by the opposite wall of the room.

Oh shit.

 It was what I feared.

Please don't let Cami freak out. 

Turning around I wiped the remains off my lips with the sleeve of my long sleeve gray shirt. The dark red blood shining in death's mocking victory.

"You're dying Y/N. Why didn't you tell us? Why make us despise you instead?"

I tore my eyes away from Camila, and finally noticed the rest of the people inside the room. All of the girls were there besides Lauren. And I was finally happy she wasn't here because I didn't want her to see this.

I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket and I was thankful for the distraction. Before the girls could protest, I reached into my back pocket and unlocked the screen, checking my notifications.

"Lauren Jauregui,band member of Fifth Harmony, kissing a female confirmed"

My eyebrows furrowed as I scrolled down then I came across a photo attached to the article. It was her locking lips with Lucy Vives.

This felt even more painful than the blood. At this moment, it felt more painful than everything.

I looked up from the screen towards the girls and set the phone back safely in my pocket.

I couldn't meet their eyes as I limped to a chair nearby.

" Is she finally happy?" My voice sounded strained,cracked with hurt.

Dinah stared into my eyes with sympathy. Her eyes softened as she realized what I was referring to. 

"We're not sure Y/N/N. She's been distant."

I nodded my head in understanding and ran to the sink before I could stain the floor.

Just great. 

I grabbed a paper towel from it's holder and attempted to wipe the blood off of my lips before it could stain them a shade of unnatural red. 

"Why didn't you tell us?"

 This was Ally now. I felt the need to explain myself as simply as I could. 

"I couldn't. It would not have been fair of me to take Lauren away from her dream, or to take any of you guys from your dream  either. Once I was stable,I could return. And I was supposed to be... but I guess this means otherwise."

I gestured towards the bloody sink and the paper towel that I was dabbing against my mouth. 

Camila walked over to me and wrapped her arms around me. I melted into her embrace. She took the towel from my hands and aided me. 

"You should have told us Y/N-" Dinah was interrupted by the door opening. 

I finally took in my surroundings and realized that I was back to where everything happened, the apartment.