Lexi Cullen 🃏

Chapter 3

lexi's P.O.V

I was sat at the window looking at my parents and Renesmee playing in the snow. It hurt to see them having so much fun. It's not like I could go out there with anyone else. They are all busy.

I thought about everything that's happened to me for 16 years. It made me cry, crying was something I have been doing recently. It might sound weird for me to cry because I'm known as a badass, but it was distressing.

I felt hands on shoulders, pulling me into a hug from behind. I didn't care who it was I just needed the comfort.

Turning around without looking at them, I cried into the crook of their neck. All of the stuff that had happened to me, hit me like a truck full of bricks. All the hatred and the not caring part, not being loved, favouritism and more that I haven't discovered yet.

"Shh... don't worry, sweetie, everything's all right." They soothed.

By the voice, I could tell it was Nana.

I could hear everyone come in. I felt stares look at me but I just ignored it. I could see Nana motioning someone to help her put me to bed.

Before even seeing someone picking me up, I fell into a sleep. All the crying I have done made me sleepy.

But also made me very sad.

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I woke up to the sound of continuous screaming. Sitting straight up and rubbing the sleep out of my eyes, I went downstairs.

"YOU ARE NOT SENDING HER AWAY, I DONT CARE IF YOU DONT WANT HER HERE. I LOVE HER!"

Is that Nana?

Walking into the living, I saw my parents along with my grandparents arguing. I walked over to Emmet asking him what the hell is going on.

"Your "parents' are trying taking you away."

"What, why?"

I could feel the angriness in his voice, the venom, the protectiveness over me. Not wanting me to go.

How could they be so selfish and send me away? The assholes of parents just never give up, do they?

"It's for your own good, Esmé, nobody wants her, nobody likes her, she has no gift. She cries and wants attention. She is just being pathetic. What's the point in having her here." Bella argued back.

"THIS IS NOT FOR MY OWN GOOD, YOU'RE JUST DOING IT BECAUSE YOU WANT TO! EVERYBODY LOVES HER. IT DOESNT MATTER IF SHE HASNT GOT A GIFT. SHES ONLY CRYING AND BEING SO UPSET BECAUSE YOU DONT LOVE HER. ALL YOU CARE ABOUT IS RENESMEE!"

"But Esmé, please-"

"SHE IS LIKE A DAUGHTER TO ME, A DAUGHTER THAT I NEVER GOT. MY SON DIED WHEN I WAS A HUMAN, AND IT HURT ME LIKE HELL! SHE IS LIKE A CHILD THAT I EVER WANTED, ONE THAT I COULDN'T GET! YOU ARE NOT SENDING HER AWAY AND THAT'S FINAL!" She spat.

Nana saw me and gave me a small smile. Which calmed her down. Bella muttered a quick, "It's too late, she going and that's it!"

I could feel at the corner of my eye, Nana giving Bella a death glare, along with a look saying 'oh yeah, you want to bet?'

Laughing at Nana's look, I sent a glare towards my 'parents' before speeding an out the door.

Going to the place that calms me.

The small waterfall that was nearby.

I sat on the rock like I always do. Pulling out something that I should have quit ages ago.

A cigarette.

I smoked it, smoked it all the way.

It felt good.

Throwing it on the floor and stamping on it. I felt as if someone was watching me.

Looking around I notice someone's appearance, a familiar appearance, a girl appearance.

Looking closer I noticed my twin sister.

Renesmee.

"What the hell, Renesmee?!"

"This is my place. I like to come here a lot." She said, approaching towards me.

"I knew this place ever since that day my so-called "parents" gave me up. I was so upset that I just ran and ran. This is how I come across this."

"I just wanted to go for a walk one day. I come across this too that day.

I rolled my eyes and stared at the waterfall.

"Why do you hate me? What have I done to you that made you act like that towards me because whatever I did I'm sorry, okay? I don't like all of this Renesmee, this fighting and being told I'm not loved or accepted."

"I was told to. Bella didn't like the way we were playing nicely together when we were younger. She couldn't stand you. I seriously don't know why. But I'm sorry I do treat you like that. Maybe I just got too carried away that I said some awful things over the past couple of years. I don't necessarily mean it. Like you are loved by so many. Carlisle, Esme, Alice, Jasper, Emmett... but for me? I'm just loved my Rosalie, Mum and dad."

"You are loved so much Renesmee. Don't lie." I rolled my eyes.

"It's true though."

I sighed, "I just wish this hatred that Bella and Edward have towards me will go away. I hate it all. But unfortunately, they'll never like me. Besides they must hate me very much if they are sending me away." I sighed, blinking back the tears that threatened to fall.

"They are sick of you crying and that all because they don't love you. Getting attention from Esme." I rolled my eyes.

Silence fell upon us.

"Well, I gotta go, my parents don't really want me around you. They think you'll be a bad influence on me." She chuckled.

"I'm not surprised, to be honest." I chuckled. "Bye, if anyone asks where I just say I'm having fresh air. Which really I am."

"Oh okay then. Bye." She walked away.

I placed my attention back on the waterfall. I smiled at how beautiful it was. Even though it was a small waterfall, it still managed to amaze me.