Diary of a Broken Doll

The Aftermath

I hang up with Drew. I sit down and write Mrs. Winkle a note telling her I won't be able to clean up for her anymore. She knows some of what I've been going through.

I add that I had to fight my mama and the pathetic excuse for a man in her life because I was tired of the abuse. I pace the floor impatiently. I stand at the dining room window looking out for Drew.

I go to the living room to check the time. I hear a round of loud thumps and run to the window to see Drew beating on my door. I run outside to meet him. My mama comes to the door as we jump into the car.

"Come back here Bitch!" She shouts.

"What's going on C?" Drew asks.

"Drive Drew. I don't want to be around here! I don't want to look at her." I plead.

He skids away from our house and pulls over a few blocks down.

"What the hell happened back there?"

I tell him every detail from the previous run-ins with Doughy to the continuous abuse from my mom. I cry hard as I tell him how she blames me cause he wants me.

After I'm done I fall silent and look out of the window into the night. Suddenly I slam back into the seat. We do a U-turn and head back toward my house.

"Stay here." He says leaving the car running.

He knocks on the door a couple of times before my mama comes to the door, dragging on a cigarette. He pushes past her and goes into the house. When he reappears he and Doughy are standing on the porch talking. I listen carefully as he threatens to kill Doughy's ass if he ever touches his baby again.

"That girl a slut just like her mama. She ain't worth the gas you burnt getting over here. She threw herself at me like she always do and got caught up. Tell her to bring her ass in this house and me and her mama won't press charges for the shit she did."

"Don't nobody believe that! You a nasty lying bitch. I'll kill yo ass and won't nobody look for you. You ain't shit!"

"Nigga you crazy!" Doughy shouts. Before he could continue Drew slapped him hard with something and he fell to his knees. Drew punched him twice with the shadowy object. I jumped out of the car. I ran over.

"Come on Drew! He ain't worth it. Let's go." I cried.

"Naw fuck this nigga! After what he did to you? Fuck him!" Drew held what I now saw to be a gun to his head.

Mama appeared at the door with the phone. "I'm calling the police. Get in this house Courtney!" She shouted.

"No and you better not call the police! I'm gone tell them everything. You must've forgot you a drugged out hoe with a sorry ass pimp for a boyfriend!" I threaten.
"Fuck you and that sick bastard. Come on Drew!" I scream, not wanting the police to come. I knew it could get real messy.

"Get in this house!" My mama yelled.

"Think about everything you did to me. That he did to me. Both of y'all could go down for that shit. I'm not coming in there! I'm not ever coming in there anymore!" Tears fill my eyes.

"Ain't nobody do shit to you." She glares.

"Come on Drew." I whisper pulling Drew's arm. "Please. Don't worry about him. He fucked anyway! I got the dress I had on with his sperm on it. Fuck them." I tug. Drew backs off still pointing the gun.

Mama walks up to me. "You wouldn't turn that shit in!"

"Why not? I don't give a fuck about y'all. If y'all don't open y'all eyes to see another day I couldn't care less. I want y'all to suffer like I had to. Two miserable motherfuckers. Count me out." I shook my head in disgust before I laughed sinisterly.