Not The Same

...R U SRIUS

My heart was pounding, my mind was blank and all he did was smile at me. His light skinned face and light brown eyes had me speechless. We started walking up the stairs and I felt his fingers touching my waist, he walked so close behind me that I swear his heart beat was in my back. I turned to see his face, he started to grab my back and lean into me, I tried to step backwords but he pulled me in. All I could feel was his mouth over mine, his muscles feeling tighter than ever and my shirt being lifted. "Slow down." I said trying to catch my breath, but he just kept pulling me in. He opened his room door and closed it when we got in, before I knew it he was holding me by my thyes and I was feet above the ground. I didn't know how to stop it, Micah is cute and all but I don't like him like that. He dropped me on his bed, I sat up looking very flustered and said "I'm not too sure about this, can't we talk a little bit first...", maybe that wasn't the best time to say it because he was already taking off his shirt, man his abs were nice and tan, he got on top of me and leaned in.

The first thing I smelt was alcohol and weed, oh my Lord... when did he do this, maybe when he put me on the bed, but I didn't smell anything in his room. "Common, just do it...I wont tell anyone you did it" he said lifting up my shirt. "Are you freaking serious right now, why are you high and drunk" I said moving his hand...before I could get another word out he was gripping on my hair and cheek, pulling my shirt and biting my neck. My eyes started to water, I'm in the 11th grade, its too early and I wanted to save this for someone special and now it might be too late. He wouldn't stop, I yelled and tried to kick him off me but it didn't work. My face was burning with tears, my head started to hurt,he had already taken off my shirt and was gripping at my tights. "Micah, please stop your hurting me, I said trying to get me words out. He stopped kissing my neck and looked up at me, "don't cry were only having fun...isn't that what you want, to have fun with me", he said still looking at the lower of me. "Yeah...of course, but not like this...

Micah's P.O.V  

I could tell she wasn't feeling it but I was totally feeling her, when she started to cry I felt so much guilt. I got off of her and helped her up, she pushed me away and threw on her shirt. "I don't want anything too change but, that wasn't where I wanted it to go, she said wiping away her tears. If she didn't want it to go that  way then why did she agree to come inside with me ... why did she let me lift her up and take her shirt off."Please don't leave I'm soo sorry, I wont push you to do anything again, I said to her while she fixed her hair...I couldn't help but remember how good it felt to tug on he long curly hair and biting on her small neck. I thought everything was going great but now that I look back at it, all I could say was "R U SRIUS!"