The Half of Reality

#Crushes?

It's almost seven years,

When I see you.

When I feel you.

When I see the smile on my face.

When I feel being crazy.

It's almost seven years.

And I still have a crush on you.

Now, I am here.

To find you.

To see you,

And hopefully, to be

With you.

At that day.

I don't know why I am being so pathetic.

You blow me away.

I want to say "Hi"

Asking "How are you?"

But I doubt if you still remember me.

Because I try.

I try to erase you in my life,

In my heart.

In my mind and in my soul.

But you keep showing yourself to me.

Without your knowledge.

Without knowing that...

I am here.

Running away from you,

I don't know why.

Why I am running?

As I look back.

I see you.

You're still too far away from me,

Yet I still run away from you and...

You never follow me.

Does it hurt me?

No, I am fine with this.

Yes?

No, I am good at this.

Saying I am fine

Even it hurts me a lot,

Even it hurts me so much.

We have nothing.

For you, I am nothing.

For me you are my everything.

You can remember me.

I'll pretend that

I can't remember everything.

Not because I want to.

But because I have too.

I have to stay where here.

I away from you.

I am fine with this.

Looking far away from you.

At that night.

I see him twice.

The first night I cover my face out of nowhere.

The second night I know where I can find him,

I doubt if it is true, I doubt if it really him.

Because the next day I can't found him.

I can see him in a rare instances.

But I still doubt if it is him,

Even my body responds his presence.

I want to see him,

Without coving my face,

Without shame.

Without doubt that it is really him.

It is almost seven years.

And I still have a crush on you.