She: A Jacob Perez Novel

Chapter 10

February 14,Valentine's Day // Jacob Perez //Crib

I knew I should have waited, and kissing her was a big mistake. She's pissed at me for even liking it But throughout all denial and lies, she can't say She didn't kiss back. Maybe she wasn't ready For me to throw myself at her? Or maybe I got too comfortable.. And I feel so stupid and actually thought that we actually a couple. But hey ,At least it was time spent.. "F'uck! " I kicked the trash can, making it fall over. That was stupid to do actually. I should have kept my feelings in a zip lock bag. If I have, she wouldn't have been avoiding me right now.

." Then again.. it isn't my fault.Shit, why can't she just fucking love me! Dammit "I mumbled angrily. Now I feel stupid. I raise up to my feet and walk over to my window. Antoinette was supposed to be leaving with Craig about now. She told me that he sit up this little date for them. I hate that got d'amn faggot. The sun was kissing the horizon which means the evening is ending. And I've spent Valentine's day alone. Without Antoinette.. And It's funny because I feel so lost without her... I spent nearly everyday with her, minus yesterday.

So I watch her closely and I as she gets ready in her room. A sexy red, skin tight dress, her hair was curled, and she was working on putting on her heels. She looks beautiful and I wished I could tell Her that, but she won't f'ucking talk to me. It was just yesterday when we were sitting back watching tv together And laughing. Funny How things can change in a matter of seconds. I lost her. That's a lie because the truth is, I never had her to begin with. She smiled in the mirror, dabbing on a little more blush than usually. Which made me wonder? What happened? I furrowed my eyebrows together as I tried to come up with several exclamations

She pulls down the ends of her dress as she hurried over to her bed and grabs her wallet. From there she goes back to her mirror, taking one last good look at her reflection. As she stared, I could see the hurt and shame in her eyes. Her smile slowly fades and she cocks her head to the side, getting a better view. Antoinette looked at herself like she have seen a monster. Then she bows her head looking down at her feet. I kick back the raging urge To go over to her. To hold her in my arms and tell her everything is going to be fine. Even though I know everything is fucked up And hectic, I'll still see the brighter side of things. The brighter side of the flipped around life story.

What She's not understanding is that I could rewrite her future for her. Give her a change of Perspective.. Shake out of thought, almost panicking when I couldn't find Her in the room anymore. My eyes darted around Her room, but didn't spot Antoinette.

Clap! My head shot up as soon as I heard The door slam shut. It was she... She as in her and her as in Antoinette. "I thought I lost you for a sec "I chuckled at my own choice of a stupid joke. My followed her as she started walking to his Corvette. . Craig's Corvette of course? The one that probably had a million naked females bodies in their, not counting freshman. Craig is the biggest man whore ever! And frankly, I don't understand what all girls see in him? He's f'ucking shallow and self centered. F'ucking a'sshole. Why is it that good guys finish last. Niggah F'uck that*_

Vicious //Valica //Date Night //Valentine's Day //7:45

I think at this point It's official. I mean we haven't spoken about what exactly are we, but I'm fine with ignorance. I rather not make titles because I'm not really sure if we're a couple. We don't want this to be awkward either. I mean we're bestfriends and I don't really want anything to change.

"So do you wanna go out ", he pauses ,trying to read my expression. " it is Valentines Day " He lays his head on the couch pillow, smiling a little. "We don't have to. I mean, I don't really want to go out "I grab a hold of his warm hand ,and hold it up to my lips, pecking them softly. His lips curved into a smile, then his dark glossy eyes died into mine. "Alright, sooooo? You hungry? "He jumps up ,walking over to the kitchen. I get up and follow him, just our curiosity. "Imma cook for ya "he turns his back to me and swings open my stainless steal refrigerator. I lean on the island and fold my arms around me.