She: A Jacob Perez Novel

Chapter 22

Antoinette Perspective //Hospital with Jacob //12:00am

Yeah, we had issues. Can we dismiss those?

Thinking.. Going back and fourth in my head debating on rather or not I should tell him. This secret is nipping away at my skin and eating me alive. I don't think I can hold this in anymore. One side is telling me "Yes" ,but the other is giving me reasons to stall.. The time is running out on the clock ;we might not have much longer with one another. I don't think I can bare being away from him. I mean I'm honestly, never more than 50 ft away. He lives Next door, he goes to My school, his locker is down the hall from mine and he spends a lot of time with me. Being away from him is like torture. This will either make us stronger or just destroy us all together.

I had my fingers twirling through his soft curls as I hum a melody. He was almost going to sleep thanks to me. I would have been sleep too,if I would have took those pills. "Jake " "Nette" I smile as he turn towards me so we're lying face to face. He stares me in my eyes then curves his lips into a smile. "About the baby, would you love he or she like you love me? "I said. His smile soften, "God, I think you'll be jealous. I'll love my kids more than I'll love myself. "He tells me. "Jacob what if he did it for a reason ".He nods. "He as in God ?".

"Yeah, what if it wasn't our time to have a baby. And he sent he or she back up to heaven until we're older? You Ever think like that? " He sighs. "No I don't. I think you would be a wonderful mom. You'll Love her so much and you'll dress her up and pretty little clothes and you'll Love her. You'll feed her and do her hair. Play with her and.. you'll love her soo much. "I just realized he was holding my hand and squeezing it. Jacob wanted a girl. "Jacob "I whisper. He hesitates,"Yes Antoinette " He was sitting at angle where I couldn't see if he was crying or not. "Jacob baby, are you okay. "He doesn't answer me."Jacob come here "I whisper, pulling on his shirt. He turns my way with watery eyes. He's going to make me cry now. I didn't say anything and pulled him into my arms, rubbing his back and swaying side to side. "Let's go to sleep. "

Bianca Perspective //Toni's House//,Three Days later 

I toss Antoinette her cut up pants and she sadly stuffed it in her suitcase. She's been quiet lately. "Toni What's wrong?"I ask. She shrugs and continues to pack not even making eyes contact with me. "Antoinette "She looks up and sighs. "I'm just thinking, that's all. My stomach still hurts because of the stitches and all, and I haven't talked to Jacob since he came to the hospital. "She said. I have no idea how's she feeling right now. "Do you want me to give you pain pills and maybe Jacob is just tired and busy. Don't think too much about it Ann "I said.

She nods, "no, those pills make me drowsy. "She tells me. "Okay that's cool. How about you just lie down ,you look exhausted. " She nods ,putting down the clothes and crawling into her bed. "You wanna see my stitches. "She says smiling a little. "Yeah sure they hurt still!? "I ask as she holds up her shirt. "Yeah It's really sore "she whines. "That looks painful. I still can't believe you jumped in front of the bullet for Jacob "I said and all she could do is smile, "I can't either. It's just a reaction I had, ya know. I felt like I had to protect him somehow. I didn't wanna see him hurt "she explains.

 " that's sorta romantic "I furrow my eyebrows together and laugh. "I write my own romance. I think I'm staying until his birthday. Then I'll have to leave. I'll miss you guys "she sighs. "I'm going to miss you so much! You're one of my best friends "I said kind of tearing up. "Don't get all gushy on me. You're going to make me emotional "she laughes."your right.. wanna watch Teen Wolf, until my momma makes me go home "I asked. "Duhh! Don't I always! "She shrieks.I'm going to miss her.. a lot! My Antoinette...

Antoinette A.//2:02 am//Degrassi Marathon //Alone//April /18 /14

Your face is all that I see