Philophobia

Cold , Cruel and Heartless

Here we are . Still standing at the door . I was gobsmacked to say the least , but anger bubbled inside of me . Obviously Pj was completely oblivious to what was going on . So i had to make something up . I gave Phil the look and he spoke up . " look , Dan's friend " "Pj " "Pj , look the other day me and Dan had a bit of a misunderstanding , but everything is fine now right Dan ?" He looked at me . I was still furious but o spoke " yea , its all good now . Just a misunderstanding peej don't worry " i said giving him a reassuring smile . He looked so confused bless him . But i couldn't tell him what really happened . " Uhm okay  , but i have to go Dan i got a text from this guy called Chris that is looking for a flatmate too " "Awesome , ill see you later bud ! Good luck " i reached over and gave him a hug . "Thanks dan , you too " he squeezed passed Phil and left . " So , Phil , would you care to tell me how you found out my name ?" I was impatient . Very impatient . " Well , i saw your ad in the yellow pages , and your friend Pj put your picture too , i was in starbucks and i seen you in which i realised it was you so then i went and apologised . I wanted us to be on good terms before i asked to move in with you " he said smiling . He was sweet . But i remember what he said the night we met and i will never forget it . But i wanna give him a chance . " look Phil we aren't on good terms just yet , but I'm willing to give you a chance okay ?" I smiled at him . " Thank you Dan , i wont let you down " he shook my hand , and in that moment . I felt something . I wasn't quite  sure what it was , but it was cold , cruel and heartless . All the less i felt something and it lingered on my hand for quite some time . Phil stayed for a for hours and i got to know him , he liked all the things i did ! Food , anime and Mario kart , it wasn't going to be hard for us to get along , after some time Phil had to leave . I was quite sad because we had got to know a lot about each other and our meaningless conversations meant something to me . " I had fun tonight Dan , i think this is the start to a beautiful friendship " " yea i agree , but Phil i have something to ask " i was nervous, and i don't know why but a few hours ago i wanted to rip this guys head off now I'm asking him if he wants to move in with me ? Wtf . " Yea Dan ?" He looked so innocent and it warmed my heart . " Move in with me " . "What ?" " I said move in with me " there was a long pause . I hadn't took my eyes off his blue ones . " Yea , okay then " he then extended his hand and i thought he was going to shake my hand but instead he pulled me into a hug , his body was cold and i felt that same feeling once again , cold , cruel and heartless . We stayed like that for about 5 seconds before he pulled away , making his way to the front door . " Text me the details okay dan ? " " Okay Phil " i laughed as i remembered about tfios . I closed the door behind him and locked up , i lay in bed staring at the dark ceiling thinking about one thing . How on earth could two strangers meet , hate each other , then become friends and move in with each other ? I don't really understand it myself , but what i did know is that , that night i dreamt of a boy called Phil Lester with the piercing blue eyes and the cold , cruel and heartless touch .