If only.......... BTS?

past & first kisseu?

 hehe what do ya'll think from the title???hmmmm???? haha read and see *evil smile*. nothing bad, spoiler!!!! it's just that there is a twist haha MUAHAHAHAHAHAAH!!

SUGA'S POINT OF VEIW

HAHA well at least i still have her phone first I'm going to put my number in it then get her number. so I put myself under sweetsugar and put her number in my phone as cutiewife haha i know how it might sound to you but i love her there's just.......something about her that brightens up my day and I've ....never....felt so happy in my life and she makes me feel like I need to be a better person just by looking at her. and jungkook came in with her and holding her hand, ok what to do........i think i'm going to be super nice to them and get really close hailey and maybe she'll  change her mind and come to me instead of liking jungkook....so i acted nice even though it's killing me to.

jungkook-"ok, everyone listen up hailey is my girlfriend and if you have a problem with that then go get your own, because i love her and she loves me"

suga/me-"NO SHE- i mean well i guess that's fine, sorry hailey for my bad behavior..I'm not really like this."

jimin-"you aren't?"

me-"SHU- i mean sorry if i treated you all bad, I shouldn't have taken my anger out on all of ya'll, when i was little i was......never mind i don't need to share my past with you dummies."

i don't need to go this far just for a girl.....so never mind I don't need to tell them what happened, and this is not an act, i really did go through some stuff that only I and other people know......and i would like to keep it that way.........*thinking about past*.....
 
FLASH BACK TO PAST SUGA IS 8 YEARS OLD.
i was hiding in the kitchen pantry trying to get away from the fighting and loud voices but they never went away

Mom-"YOU NEVER CARED ABOUT THIS FAMILY AND YOU NEVER LOVED ME, THE ONLY REASON YOU EVER MARRIED  ME WAS BECAUSE IT WAS ARRANGED BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN THAT YOU CAN JUST LEAVE ME AND MINNY!!!!!!"

Dad-"who cares??  OF COURSE I NEVER LOVED YOU, WHY DO YOU THINK I'M LEAVING IN THE FIRST PLACE YOU STUPID WOMEN!!!!! I'M GOING TO AMERICA AND NEVER COMING BACK AND GOOD LUCK TRYING TO RAISE MINYOONGI ON YOUR OWN HAHA I BET EVEN HE DOESN'T CARE ABOUT YOU, I BET HE WANTS TO LEAVE TO"

when dad said this it made me angry  because i could see everything....everything i saw him hit her i saw him beat her all the time and when I.... I was such a coward BUT NOT THIS TIME  NEVER AGAIN WILL I HIDE BEHIND THESE STUPID DOORS!! i then opened the doors and ran to mom and started yelling at my dad without crying, it's like all the years of mad poured out.

8years old minyoongi-" DON'T TOUCH MOM!!!! IF YOU DON'T LIKE HER THEN WHY DID HAVE ME WITH HER!!!!! ARE YOU STUPID?? AND THE ONLY REASON I WOULD EVER WANT TO LEAVE IS BECAUSE OF YOU!!!!!!" I said and punched him in the leg. and it hurt him alot because i was learning to karate and i was already a black belt but my dad ........was nothing.

Dad-"WHO TOLD YOU TO SPEAK LIKE THIS TO YOUR FATHER?!!!!!!!"

8years old minyoongi-"YOU DID BECAUSE YOU HAVE NO SENSE AND TO STUPID TO SEE HOW GREAT MOM REALLY IS!!!! NOW LEAVE BECAUSE WE DON'T WANT YOU HERE AND NEVER COME BACK BECAUSE YOU WILL NEVER BE WELCOMED HERE TILL THE DAY YOU DIE!!!!!!!!!"
My mom was just weeping because before i came out of the pantry he was beating her. then my dad started coming closer to me because he was going to do the same to me, then he picked me up and my mom was trying to get me so he wouldn't hurt me but i was hiding a knife in the sleeves of my shirt, he didn't know that, he then put me down and started dragging me out of the house by my hair, i was crying but i knew that this situation would only get worst so i got the knife out of my sleeve and stabbed him in the back because he was dragging me, but looking at what i was doing and my mom could see everything because she was trying so hard to get me away from him but she also didn't know i had a knife so she saw me stab him, and i kept stabbing him until he fell to the ground....then when i got on top of him still mad, he said.