May 14, 2010
Dear Diary,
Nothing has been out of the ordinary. After Louis met Leah, it was like it was before, except Leah wasn't being a depressed, angry, chick I was used to anymore. She was happy. I was glad for her, and it was nice not having her all up in your case for once.
I'm back to running normal patrols now, and I'm glad to have time to eat and sleep again. I've had a lot of time to spend with Nessie too. I can't believe how much more mature she's gotten. She's very smart, and fun to talk to. I find myself in love with her no matter how much I think through the consequences. I was made to be with her.
Yesterday, I went to the grocery store with her, I guess I needed to be with her for a while. I find myself wanting to be around her more and more...every time I see her, I want to spend even more time with her, and my need has grown a lot since then. We were just about to go to the checkout line, when this guy came up to Ness and hugged her. He looked like such a freaking tool.
They were talking animatedly about some project and about how much they wanted to get out of school, while I pretended to study the different brands of American cheese. Then he asked her out. The damn kid asked her out.
"Hey, what are you doing tonight?" the guy asked. I was fuming already.
"Well, I'll have to check. You want to call me?" she asked. I tried to control my shaking, though they completely ignored me.
"Yeah, sure." he grinned widely, while Ness pulled a gum wrapper out of her bag, and scribbled her number. After she handed it to him, he glanced at me for the first time, and he shrunk back. He scrambled away and Ness grinned after him.
"He is so cute!" she said, not noticing my state of anger. I rammed my cart into the line, and she looked slightly concerned.
"What's wrong Jake?" she pestered. I glared at the candy bars in front of me.
"Nothing." I spat, and regretted using that tone, but was to angry to apologize. She winced, and paid the checkout lady.
When we made it home, I carried all the bags, and she went inside. I followed, and left all the groceries on the counter.
By the time I had stomped outside, I saw Edward relaxing in a patio chair. He must of read my thoughts.
"I don't want her dating either, you know." he said softly. I nodded.
"Tell me about it." I said. Edward hummed in agreement, and we conversed softly about the situation. He told me to let her go, that she needs a normal teenage life...that is until I tell her about her being my imprint. Jeez, that's gonna be hard.
Of course Alice, the midget, was thrilled to give Ness a 'makeover'. I was taking deep breaths, controlling myself, and watched some football with Emmett. Me and him have become pretty tight over the last few years. A lot of common interests.
By the time Ness was left, looking like a freaking goddess, I was very angry that she would be going to 'dinner' with this punk.
The rest of the house had scattered, to go hunting. Then I decided to ignore my conscious, and followed them.
He took her to a restaurant outside of town, and I walked in a minute after they did. The hostess asked where I wanted to sit. I shook my head at her, and took a spot in a booth. The hostess shrugged, and let me stay where I was. I'm sure I looked murderous, so she didn't bother. I was glad to see the booth I chose had perfect sight of them, and no possible way she could see me.
She laughed a lot, and blushed a lot. She would let her eyes wonder every once in a while, and though she couldn't see me, it seemed like she could feel I was there. I heard her date ask for their check, and I knew it was my cue to leave. I got up, and walked outside. By the time I opened my door, I heard an angry voice yell my name. Oops. I forgot she could see the exit door. Crap. Ness came out of the building with her face flushed, and eyes almost black with anger.
"Jacob Black, what the hell are you doing here, at my date?!" She exclaimed, flailing her hands through the air.
"I was hungry." I lied. She rolled her eyes.
"Bullcrap!" She yelled. Her date had walked out then, and she looked at him. She whispered something in his ear, probably telling him to go ahead and leave from what I could hear. He looked at me, and nodded to Nessie, mumbling a goodbye, before he bolted to his car. He peeled out of the parking lot like a bat out of hell. I almost went to kick this punk's butt for leaving Ness, even if she told him to. I couldn't though because she demanded my attention.
"I was checking up on you." I mumbled. She looked at me incredulously.
"I am allowed to date!" She shrieked.
"That guy was such a tool!" I said. She frowned and kept going on and on about how she had freedom, and that even if I didn't like it, I shouldn't screw it up. I sighed. She was rambling on and on, until I did what I have waited years to do. I kissed her. I couldn't stop myself, and once I kissed her, I didn't want to stop. She had such soft lips, and tasted slightly of pomegranate. I tried to push all my love through the kiss, and when she started responding, I pulled away.
"Ness, ever since I saw you, not even a day old, I knew you were made for me...You're my... imprint." I said slowly, wondering if I should regret saying this. Her eyes widened, and her already abnormally fast heartbeat picked up, and started beating faster. Her already flushed face became a deep crimson. I remember her reaction as clear as day.
"Wha-what?" She whispered. I looked up at her.
"Yes, imprint...Like Sam and Emily, Jared and Kim." Her eyes got even wider, and her brows furrowed.
"Why didn't you tell me?" she said, her voice still quiet. I felt guilty.
"I...we, wanted to wait until you were ready...I also was afraid of your reaction, you know, that you wouldn't feel the same. I wonder now if I should have waited." I said, looking at her. Her eyes narrowed.
"No! I'm glad you told me. I mean, It explains a lot." She said.
"Explains what?" I asked, confused.
"All the...everything I've felt for you. Love, attraction...I was keeping it to myself, because I was afraid it would ruin our friendship. It also explains your jealousy." She said, giggling at the end, a small, embarrassed giggle. Her and I talked for about twenty minutes in my car while sitting in the parking lot, and I explained to her that, I too felt those feelings for her. She understood, but still seemed a bit...shocked.
The car ride home was silent, a bit uncomfortable. I dropped her off with a light kiss on her forehead, whispered 'I love you', and drove home, hoping the Cullens wouldn't be back from hunting. I already could imagine Eddie's reaction. I am so dead.
I think I hear a car up my drive, so I'm gonna go.
I'll tell you what happens...if I live.
- Jacob
