Adjective
Refraining from speech or temporarily speechless
~Jason~
I can't believe I pushed her over the edge and made her want to die. I love her to death what the fuck am I thinking I can't hurt her. I was just so mad like I don't know I just real mad like how can he make her laugh and I can't! I haven't even made her smile and she's been here for about three days. Shit she hasn't even eaten for that fact. I already miss her like a little should probably go into9 the hospital room but I don't know if I can face her while she's like this. Shit I know I can't face her in the state she is in now. It's all my fault she is in that state.
Before u could turn around and head back to my office, I found myself turning the knob to where my baby is just to see her waking writing something down on a piece of paper. I looked round the room to also see Tre looking dead at me about to kill me. I mean like that death stare where you are gonna die slow and painful and geo looking at me saying you better run with his eyes.
"Lauryn..." I whispered looking right at her not caring if geo and Tre were here. She looked back at me with a weak smile but didn't say anything. Why isn't she talking to me... well let alone anyone here. I mean at least she smiled at me right?
"Don't you fucking talk to her let alone look at her!!" Tre screamed at me with Geo holding him back.
I ignored him and said "I'm sorry, I didn't mean it. I promise you It didn't mean it. I know I can't promise...actually I can I can promise it won't happen again happen again... actually I can go to therapy and take my meds with you. I'll do anything. Just know I'm sor..." I was fucking cut off yet again. FUCK! Let me finish.
"Oh shut the fuck up Jason! She isn't going to stay here with you. I'm taking her home with me. Don't ever try to touch or contact her again! You have beaten her and cussed the fuck out of her to the point where she cut again! She will never forgive you, I don't even have to force her. You are just like That dick of an Ex Corey. We are leaving tonight fucktard!" Tre screamed in my face.
I see that Lauryn gives Geo another piece of paper looking right at me.
"Um Tre Lauryn says stop and she wants Jason to go to her ALONE. She also said that there will be no questions from you Tre." Geo said while looking at the piece of paper.
"why couldn't she say it herself?" I asked getting a little angry she isn't speaking.
"She went mute because of you dumbfuck!" Tre angrily screamed in my face.
"like forever?" I said barely audible
I felt someone grab my hand and I looked down to see Lauryn shaking her head no while rubbing the back of my hand with her thumb. If I said I didn't have butterflies in my stomach while she was doing that I would be lying.
"Well for how long than?" I questioned with a tear going down my face looking down at my princess in this hospital bed. Who I myself put in here.
"Not for long maybe for a few days" I heard Geo come up from behind me rubbing my back.
"I'm so sorry please forgive me Laur" I croaked out.
She let go of my hand and looked down at the white bed sheets she suddenly found interested in. I didn't know what to do like she can't leave me! She just can't! She won't leave me! I'll make her love me!
"Lauryn let me at least try to prove it to you." I cried out to her
She still shook her head no. Which broke my heart even more. I just lost my whole world because of how stupid I am FUCK! What the fuck did I do wrong???
I walked out of the room to leave Lauryn and her "Bestfran" to talk. I didn't have any strength to hold me up anymore so I dropped on the floor and just broke down.
"dude? Fuck man! You know I love you man right?" Tre wined seeing me like this while rubbing my back.
"I love her Tre fuck I really do love her." I moaned between hiccups from the amount I was crying. Shit nobody has ever seen THE Jason McCann cry like ever.
"Bro we will stay for like a month or so before she comes home with me." He sighed
"so ill have another chance?!" I looked up at him with dry tears on my face.
"never said that but we will be staying for a bit." He said while walking away but into the hospital room.
" Thank you so much dude!" I screamed while running and jumping on his back.
"Nigga get the fuck off of me!" Tre growled while rolling his eyes and pushing me off of him.
I laughed and walked... well basically skipped back into the room just to see Lauryn looking at me and laughing. It made me smile knowing I'm finally gonna make this right with her now. This is going to be perfect.
"Tre lets go. Lauryn wants to talk to Jason alone again." Geo said while walking out ith Tre trailing behind him looking at me.
Lauryn gives me a piece of paper saying 'I know you are bipolar and have schizophrenia.'
" how did you find out?" I questioned while giving her the piece of paper back.
It takes her ten seconds to write down on the piece of paper 'Geo and Tre both told me'
"fuck how could they tell you!" I yelled getting ready to punch her. Only reason why I didn't was because I heard her whimpering and pushing herself more into the hospital bed.
"I'm sorry baby girl..." I whispered as I shoved my hands deep into my shallow pockets, while a piece of paper was being shoved in my face.
'its okay if you need to talk ill be here to talk to you' I read with a heart at the end of the note.
"really?" I questioned tilting my head to the side just to see her nodding at me.
In that moment I knew she was the one for me the only one for me. I finally got her with me.
"I love you so much princess!" I smiled while she looked away and shook her head at me.
"Why don't you love me bitch! I would do anything for you yet you turn your head and act like I'm the bad guy! Im not you ungrateful brat! You're the real bad guy here!" I screamed in her face seeing my spit lightly cover her face. Honestly don't care at the moment. I just need a stress reliever.
"Fuck you bitch!" I said walking out the room looking for a hoe to fuck.
