From Zero to Ten

Chapter 3: Am I Not Good Enough?

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Back to the Present~

Emily

I sit there, staring at that name, a name that belonged to a person that I thought I knew so very well, a person who I thought would never hurt me...

I sat frozen in shock.

"Carter! He rated you! Of all the things he could've done!" She shouted behind my shoulder.

"Yeah." It comes out as a mumble

"Hey... You alright?" Sophie said softly this time.

"I'm fine. Where's Carter?" I say, my voice slightly tainted with anger and annoyance.

"The last I saw him was in lunch, with Jenna..."

Even angrier.

Jenna is Carter's summertime fling. Also his On-and-Off relationship. She's on the drill team, he plays baseball. The typical couple right?

But let me tell you, Jenna's been out for me ever since her and Carter started dating in eighth grade. Not that I stand any chance, of course.

"I'm going to talk to him." I say packing my books and slinging my bag over my right shoulder.

"Oooooh, angry Emily. I like her." Sophie giggles.

"Whatever. You coming or not?" I say grinning

"Totally. LET'S KICK HIS TUSH! But let me get Rachel first" she bounces off.

I roll my eyes.

I have the world's most awesomeness friends I say mentally, following Sophie with a huge smile. But a defeated and broken soul deep within.

In the Cafeteria~

I walk in, determined, motivated, angry.

That is until I see his perfect dark brown hair and tan skin.

I see a blur of blond, and then my anger flares up again.

It's Jenna.

I stomp toward their table, Rachel and Sophie following behind me.

Again, that is until he faces me with his stupid blue eyes, that make me want to melt everytime he looks at me.

"Sup?" He says, an eyebrow arched, a annoying grin plaster on his idiotic yet handsome face.

But Sup? SUP? That's all he could say?!

"HOW COULD YOU?!" I screamed

The cafeteria turns deadly silent.

"Umm... what?" He asks.

I get out the journal, throwing it at him.

"A ZERO? REALLY?! AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU?" I screamed again

He looks at the book. Horror? Guilt? Or maybe Regret? Other than that, he was emotionless
" Emily..."

"SAVE IT! I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT!"
I screamed.

My face feels wet... I was crying?

Before anyone notices, I start to walk away.

Well more like run.

I was halfway down an empty hallway when suddenly I was stopped by a forceful hand.

"LET GO! I DON'T HAVE ANYTHING TO SAY TO YOU!" I yell without turning around.

"Em's..." he's said

I hate it when he calls me that.

It means he did something bad, but is only slightly sorry about it.

"Hey, hear me out?" His voice soft.

"Fine" I've calmed down. I turn towards him, "BUT FIRST YOU HAVE TO LISTEN TO WHAT I HAVE TO SAY!"

Okay. Maybe not as calm as I thought...

"I LIKED YOU! I've liked you since the first time I saw you!" My voice dying down to a whisper. "I liked you and I still do."