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Sebastian x self harm and Eating disorder reader

*******TRIGGER WARNING*******
For the use of Self harm and Anorexia

I AM SO SORRY IT TOOK ME SO LONG, I have been out of town for 4 weeks grabbing for a new job. I hope you like it.

This chapter was requested as well, idk if they want there name to be out our or not so I will just leave it like that any ways

HERE IS THE STORY

Background:

Your family and the Phantomhives had always been very close, when your parents had gone overseas on business for a while they wanted you to stay at the Phantomhive manor because they knew you would be safe and well taken care of while you stayed there. END OF BACKGROUND

Today was a beautiful day, the sun was out and made the entire estate appear as if it was glowing and radiating happiness.

  To bad that's not how you felt, as you lay in the bed in your room just before lunch, it had been hard these past few months for you to just not eat as you had always done seeing as you constantly felt fat and ugly. The only way you knew to make your self beautiful and perfect in everyway was to be skinny and the best way to be skinny is to eat small amounts of food in a day if you ate at all.

  Lately you had been noticing Sebastian was getting far more. . . concerned . . . no that's not right forceful with your eating habits. While sitting in bed thinking about how to get out of eating lunch and why Sebastian had been so keen on you eating lately a light knock came to your door interrupting your thinking

"lady (Y/N), lunch is ready to be served if you would be so kind as to grace my Lord and I with your presence." Sebastian said being a gentleman as always. You hated to lie to him all the time and sometimes felt like he could tell you were lying you just didn't know how after keeping your parents blissfully unaware of your eating disorder and self harm you felt you were pretty good at it.

Given your thoughts were interrupted you have him one of the lamest excuses you had "I'm sorry Sebastian but I'm feeling a bit ill, I'm not very hungry anyway. Thank you though." you said with a half hearted smile, hoping he would see through it and call you out but also hoping he wouldn't because it was hard for you to talk about and you honestly didn't really have the energy to talk about it right now.

He responds with a closed eye smile "as you wish my lady, I will come up to check on you after I finish serving the master, if you need anything just call for me my lady."

"Thank you Sebastian, and I will call if I need anything." you say as you roll over in bed again.

Sebasian gently shuts the door and walks back down the hall way towards the dinning room. You stare at the book shelf across from you and get out of bed and walk barefoot across the cold hardwood floor not caring about how your feet are going to get cold, you grab the old familiar leather bound volume that you always store your razors in because it's an old school book and you know no one will look inside of it, you don't really think about what your doing it's like muscle memory now, before you even know it you have walked back to the bed and now have the razor on your hand and your dress pulled up ready to cut into your thigh again . . . your thigh one of the things you hated most about your self it always was just so flabby and unsightly no matter how many times you did squats or leg raises or yoga and no matter how long it never changed it was still all fat . . . at least I'm your eyes it was that way.