Broken Girl

Chapter 3: First Kiss

I didn't end up going to school the next day even though I felt just fine. When I finally did go back to school Jason walked up to me as soon as he saw me. "I'm sorry Elizabeth. I didn't mean to make you feel uncomfortable." He blurted out before I could say hello. "Its ok, it wasn't you. I promise." I reassured him. "Alright." He replied sounding relieved. "What are you doing this weekend?" He asked me. "Sitting at home on my phone and watching tv. why?" I asked. "Because, Im going to try and hang out. Ill find something for us to do." He said as he walked into the office. When I got home I asked my mom if I could hang out with Jason. "What are you guys going to be doing?" She asked with a smirk on her face. "I dont know yet, but he said he'll figure something out." I retorted. She laughed. "I dont care. Have fun ok?" she said. I wasnt sure I would. 

When he came to my house Saturday to pick me up we went to the park. We just sat there for what felt like hours. "Do you remember when we were bestfriends in the fourth grade?" He asked. "Yeah why?" I said feeling as if I was going to throw up again. "I used to like you." He laughed. "Really?" I asked. "Yeah, you were my first crush and I thought it was funny. I used to wish for you to like me back." He smiled and looked at the ground. "I do, I mean did, your still cute, but not like that, like your not ugly but your ju-" He stopped me. "I know what you mean." He said making sure to smile at me. "You still like me?" He asked. "A little." I told him. It felt good to tell him, even if I did lie about how much I liked him. But that good feeling went away when he leaned in and  kissed me. It felt like a thousand fireworks going off at once, like looking at the Northern Lights for the first time. Its hard to explain, but it was an even better feeling than before. He finally pulled away and I couldnt help but to laugh. "Whats so funny?" He said smiling. "Nothing." I whispered with my eyes still closed. 

I got home that night and my mom asked what happened. I told her nothing, only that we went to the park and we went to get icecream afterwards.I made it up to my room and I threw myself on my bed. I started laughing uncontrollably. I couldnt get to sleep that night so I wrote in my diary. I wrote about how it felt, how it felt like it lasted for hours, like its what ive been waiting for. I finally fell asleep around 4 am. I felt happy for once. Truly happy.