MY ARTBOOK (2) [COMPLETED]

Note to all

Don't H͓̽U͓̽R͓̽T͓̽ Y̸͟͞O̸͟͞U̸͟͞R̸͟͞S̸͟͞E̸͟͞L̸͟͞F̸͟͞
I don't know who, but seriously... Most of my friends I know want to leave this world and seem it's better place.... Who knows where that is.... But your probably forgetting the ones that mostly care for you will soon be alone because all they love has left them.... I'm actually right there....
My friends want to ʞıll theirselves and I'm terrified, I keep threatening that I'll cut myself and that seems to be the only thing that makes them snap out of it.... I try to help them but they keep saying; how does it feel to have an abusive mother?
I don't know!
I never experienced about it!
All this bullshit is making me cry and thinking the bad things of the world than good.
I'm afraid
I don't wanna be alone.
My old friends don't even notice me anymore.. I'm a no body to them.... They probably forgot about me when I text them LIKE SOMEONE THAT DOES LIVE STREAMS EVERY FUCKING DAY AND I TEXT HIM EVERYDAY AND HE DOESNT SEEM TO NOTICE. One of my closest friends don't even talk to me.... And I try... I try to make myself happy.
The Roleplays I'm in makes me smile.
It helps me forget what my sadness is worrying about.
I'm really sorry if this seems like a spam....

To tell truth I don't know why people hurt theirselves, they're just punishing theirselves. Calling theirselves a mistake....
I don't get it, I don't understand...... This is making me ignore the real world to busy worrying for other people.

I just wanna say your not Alone! I wanna be there for you and help..... I don't like any of this depression. Some people do it just to get fucking attention.