Barely Legal

Love Letters to Gray

"Dear Grayson,

I have never been so in love with anyone in my life. I feel like the luckiest woman in this universe to have you as my best friend and lover. I know that this was unexpected, this whole might be pregnant situation and running away from a killer. I am thankful and blessed to have someone so supportive like you. I love being able to tell you everything and being able to rant to you about my problems. I've known you for so long that I feel like I'm another version of you and you of I. I have become a better person because of you, you make me think before I act, speak, or do anything stupid. I don't usually think of marriage or having kids, but now that we're alone and have time to ourselves, I think about it a lot. I fear losing you and our future together. I don't want to risk anything that will make me lose you. My heart becomes so heavy whenever I think of losing you. I don't know how I'd ever live without you and how I could go on knowing that your presence is no longer with me. We have been through so much, happy and sad memories, but I know that there's more to this. I wasted my time on Jake when I should have been spending more time with you and the others. I never had enough time for you guys and barely saw you because Jake would get so mad. He never understood how much you meant to me. You have been there for me since the day that we met. Loving you has made me realize that trust is more important than cooperation. I realized that if I do not trust you, I wouldn't be able to cooperate with you. Trusting someone you love will make it easier to communicate and cooperate with them. I trust you. Grayson, I adore you. How family oriented you are, how God-fearing you are, and how loyal you are. I know that we weren't as close before because I was always busy with work and Jake, but I feel like we have gotten so much closer since he and I broke up. It opened up my heart for you. You were there for me when I felt like the world was falling apart, little did I know that it was just falling into place. I know that I shouldn't apologize for running away from Asher, but I feel like I pulled you into this mess. Sometimes, I imagine what it would've been like if I ran away alone. Did things by myself and not have any sort of communication to anyone. I was terrified of the thought of it, I don't think that me being alone would help anything. Every night I pray to God that he will keep you, our friends, and my family safe and healthy. One of my biggest fears is losing any one of you, but I know that death will come some day, I just don't think I'd ever be ready to say goodbye. For now, I will live my life loving you and continue being thankful for everything that we have. We have been blessed with many things, we have been blessed with each other. My heart will forever be with you , Grayson." 

                                                                                                            

                                                                                                                                                         - Cara