8BitLovers- an 8BitRyan x Bazamalam Fanfiction

Show Me You Love Me

{Ryan's POV}
Ever since I told him that I love him, he's been holding me close when I looked sad, scared, or anything bad. That's happened a lot today. I admit, a couple times I faked it to be in his arms. To hear his whispers of love. Was it even real? Was all this really worth it? The panic I have to go through to get his attention. Right now, he's out with Lewis (Dawko) and Rhys (Razzbowski). I felt scared for him. That he would get hurt. Pandora was playing on my phone as I laid in bed, not feeling too well after my last panic attack. Maybe because I lost so much blood from my last cutting session. I don't know. Then I heard a new song start playing on my phone. "Shut the door, turn the light off." The singer sounded beautiful, he seemed to like what he sang. Soon, another started singing. "If we could only have this life for one more day." (Video at the top) Then, a few more people sang with the other two. I looked to see what song it was, and I actually scared myself. "Moments" by, guess who? One Direction. My eyes widened. Their voices were beautiful, but I don't want to fall for them. I can't be in the fandom because I'm a guy. (TBH, there's nothing wrong with boys in our fandom. We'd love more boys to join us anyway) I can't believe how much I've fallen in love with this song. I found myself replaying it so many times that I've started singing to it. I was downstairs now, and oh my god I'm dying over this song. I didn't have my headphones in, and I was in the kitchen making food. "Heart beats harder, time escapes me. Trembling hands touch skin, it makes this, harder-" I heard the door open, making me stop singing. I ran to my phone, but RyRy grabbed it first. He looked at the song, then back at me. "What the hell?" Is all he said before turning it off, cutting the song off.  "RyRy! Why did you do that?!" He sighed. "Its just that its a One Direction song, and it reminds me of something I don't ever want to think about again." I regret getting mad at him now. Lewis and Rhys ran to his side to make sure he was okay. "It's okay Baz. We're sorry about what happened earlier." Rhys said softly. He sighed and said he was going to lie down. He handed Lewis my phone and went upstairs. They both glared at me. I was terrified. "Why Ryan? Why'd you have it playing?" Rhys scolded. "I-I don't know.... I fell in love with that song, and couldn't help listening to it... Over and Over again." I ran to my room and slammed the door. I pulled out my knife and slit my arm. I loved the pain because I knew I deserved it. A little bit later and a lot more cuts, RyRy knocked on the door. "C'mon Ryan. We have to record a video." He called. "Fuck off, I don't care!" I yelled. He opened the door and saw my bloody knife. He ran to me and held me close. "Shhh, don't do that Ryan. I don't understand. You're so beautiful. Why would you do this to yourself? How bad have I let it get?" He cooed softly in my ear. I snuggled closer to him and let him take control of me. He started stroking my hair while cuddling me.

{Bazza's POV}
He looked up at me with his big brown eyes, making him look so innocent. "Are you gonna be okay Ryan?" I whispered. He nodded, closed his eyes, and rested his head by my neck, arms holding his knees to his chest. I hate how he hurts himself so much. "You're really warm Bazza." He whispered. "You wanna use one of my sweatshirts Ryan?" He nodded at my offer. I slid mine off my waist and slid it over him.  "You'll never love yourself half as much as I love you..."

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I know its short, but I'll update again soon. <3 U guys! Happy early Valentine's day!