Fionna's point of view
"So you and Marceline date?" I was just flabbergasted.
"Well yeah," Marceline the Vampire Queen responded, like it was an obvious fact. "don't you and Marshall Lee?"
Shaking my head, "Naw."
They glanced at each other. "Why not?" They asked in unison.
"Well we're just friends; he doesn't think of me in that way. Like romantic mushy stuff and whatever." I explain
I try not to think about it too much. I'm afraid to.
Suddenly the vampire puts her hand on my shoulder. "Yes he does. Trust me. This little guy over here," points to the boy with the hat like mine, "thought the same thing- except he had the balls to ask me."
"What's that mean? Had balls? I have little balls of lint in my pocket, do those count?"
'Finns' eyes got wide. Marceline grinned and chuckled.
Nvm. Just another thing I'm too stupid to know. This happens all the time. Nobody ever tells me what they mean when they say some weird thing like that. Like 'crap' or 'hell', or lately its been this 'tier 15' business. I promise, once I get home I'm going to get Gumball and Cake to explain this stuff to me. Even if I have to threaten them with something horrible- like a spit bubble!
"Is he nice to you?" Asked Marceline.
I gave some legit thought. "Um, if we're by ourselves, he's pretty sweet. Otherwise not really... He's kinda mean, actually."
"Well, that's because he doesn't want anyone to know that he likes you."
"What-- why?"
"It um, it embarrasses him."
That's really sad.. The last thing i wanted was to sob like a crybaby in front of two complete strangers and leave the wrong impression of myself, but come on, man.
The way Marshall Lee is acting. It's gumball all over again. Embarrased by my affections, and too embarrassed to object. Excepting this time was much, much worse. I only had a tiny little kid-crush on Gummybuns. I feel like this might actually be.. love.
Yet at times i get scared 'cause how do i know? What if he's just playing or something? Its true. Marshall Lee, the Vampire King: the baddest wolf (1) of all. The boy who plays. He plays with guitars and he plays with girls, and he's never serious about any of it. He's a player. Marshall flirts with me even, sometimes, and I'm scared to think about it because deep in my heart guts, i know that he's never serious about any of it.
And then he kisses me and i'm like yep! that's it. Must be love.
Jus kidding. He don't kissed me. I just pretend, in my dreams.
Still, tho.. Marceline says stuff that makes sense. It seems like Marshy doesn't love me, but that could be since he's embarrassed that he likes me for real. That would explain why he's so mean to all of us, cake and me and the prince.
Cake: 'kitty-cat'. Gumball: 'cake-maker', 'gumwad', 'gumbutt' or 'pinkie pie'. and me. "fi-fi".
I never had the nerve to tell him that's what they used to call me when i went to elementary school, fi-fi, like the little dog. Woof. i didn't want him to feel bad.
He was bullying me, and I was afraid of hurting his feelings.
So i'd just turn whenever he'd call me that so he didn't see the tears falling down my soft little cheeks. One time i made the mistake of turning to quickly so that he suspected. although he didn't see me cry, his supersonic ears heard my heart weeping silently... Marmar shut his stupid vampire piehole, and instantly he was my bestest friend, let me cry into his shoulder as he rocking me in his arms.
Then hes Telling me he's "so so sorry" and he'll "never do it again" just like my ex Flame Prince never did it again right up until the next time he did it .
What perplexes me is how could someone so nice be such a butt, and then go right back to being nice, and then back to a butt. I never know which to expect and so many times i've wished he'd just pick one or the other. if he decided to be steadily asinine it could be something to look forward to. Something to expect. Prepare myself for. Rare tenderness made the bullying that much more torturous.
Like agony.
Like fire.
...........................
I choked down the boulder lodged in my throat.
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A/n
Sad enough, aye?
Yes that's right, lovely readers! I'm still editing. I haven't given up on this crazy piece, and if y'all would comment it'd mean a lot to me. Like give me motivation & whatnot.
Footnotes (those random numbers in the story)
(1) 'baddest wolf' yes I did make a Doctor Who reference for all you whovians :)8
