Whats In The Heart (Twilight Saga FanFiction)

Chapter 6: Truth

I didn't hunt that well. I was stuck with a deer when there was clearly a lion just two miles aways. I would've sensed it, but I was too depressed. Why am I thinking about Nahuel? Why can't I think of Jacob? Jacob Only. I knew that answer already and it was too complicated to acknowledge.

 After finishing off the deer, I ran -barefoot - back to the tropical house. From the window, I could see Jacob fast asleep on the couch. He looked so adorable and desirable. It was good that he couldn't see the pain killing me off silently. 

I trudged into the house falling on the couch beside him. I wished everything was back to normal. Normal as in before Nahuel had kissed me that night. When I knew who my soul mate was. When I only loved Jacob.

But it was too late to turn back.

That was one of the sad things about being a Vampire Hybrid. You had special powers, all except one. To turn back the clock and take what once was yours. I'd kill for that special ability any day. Forget about letting people see my thoughts.

I softly ran my hands through his hair. Delicately, so he wouldn't wake up. He wouldn't be sleeping so peacefully if He knew the truth. 

And then there was a bang as a rock hit against the slide door.  I quickly jumped up, relieved it hadn't woken Jacob.

Someone was attacking. Or it could be just be an animal. Maybe I'd finally make up for my slow hunt today. Maybe it was the Lion that had gotten away thanks to my mind-blowing guilt. It'd surely lighten up the day if I'd caught him.

I bared my teeth. Hissing.And then slowly crouched over to the door.

Another blow to the door and I growled, my fangs clearly visible.

"Renesmee!"

My head craned up. Did someone just say my name?

"Renesmee, God Dammit!"

I almost screamed.

Nahuel came running up to the screen door, his face arched and distorted. He was in pain. I quickly opened the sliding door and helped him inside. He let go of me and curled down into the fetus position on the floor, rocking himself left to right. 

"Are You Okay?" I whispered. "What Happened?"

He moved his right hand away from his left to reveal a scar. It was crescent-shaped and looked exactly like Mom and Uncle Jazz's scars. I gasped.

"Did You get Bitten by a vampire?"

Nahuel gasped in pain, but nodded. "It Hurts! God, It Hurts!"

I didn't know much about Vampire Bites. Only that it could either kill you or turn you into a vampire. However, I didn't know the effect it'd have on Nahuel. Since he was a Vampire Hybrid as well.

"W-W-W What do I do?" I cried.

He stopped panting and looked into my eyes, grimacing in pain. "Kiss Me."

My heart literally stopped. "What?"

Nahuel let out a blood-curdling cry before he collasped on the floor again. His body arching and twisting in unnatural ways. Even for a vampire. Uncle Jazz never told me it happened like this. It was just a little sting.

"Kiss Me." He pleaded and tears streamed down his face. "I'm Dying."

"B-But A Vampire Bite can't kill." I whispered.

He shook his head."Kiss Me. Just like you did on our date."

I had no choice. I didn't want to lose Nahuel. I loved him and he made up my world as much as Jacob does. And he was possibly dying. This could be my last time seeing him alive. I wanted Nahuel out of my life, but not that deep.

So, I pressed my lips against his. Our tongues caressing eachother. I kissed him. For a long time. Because he wouldn't let go. Or maybe it was me that wouldn't let go. He stopped grimacing and sobbing. 

I reluctantly (?) pulled away. 

His hand caressed my face and I gently pushed it off.

"Are You Okay?" I asked.

Nahuel, to my surprise, got up and backed away towards the door. He smiled at me. A menacing yet adorable smile. "Now I am."

"But you were just in pain!"

He pecked me on the cheek. "The crazy things beings do for love."

I almost gasped. Died.  I almost died. I kissed him for nothing. He wasn't in pain. He wasn't suffering.

"HOW COULD -"

He put a hand to my mouth. "I love you."

And with that, he ran back into the jungle. Disappearing into the trees.

I collasped on the floor.

I woke up crying from a horrible nightmare. Too terrible for words. I'd find myself waking up from a deep sleep. Jacob would be staring at me, towering above me.  He'd have a pained look on his face and tearful eyes.

"How could you do this to me?" He'd said. "Why would you hurt me when all I've done is love you?"

I'd know exactly what he was talking about, but try to play it innocently. Praying to God he wouldn't catch on. "i have no idea what your talking about." I got up and faced him.

"Yes you do." He'd said. "Don't lie to me, because I know everything. The kiss with Nahuel on your 'FRIENDLY OUTING'. The kiss that you had with him last night. While I was sleeping. Don't act stupid."

i'd cowered away from him. Tears breaking through my sockets and I sobbed all over again. "I didn't mean to Jacob, I'm sorry!"

His eyes softened and he turned away from me. "Yeah, Sorry you got caught."

I pulled on his muscular arms. "Please, It wasn't like that. I don't love Nahuel. And its killing me. Because I didn't mean to kiss him. Its Killing ME JACOB!"

He wouldn't turn around to face me, he stood his ground.

"I don't love Nahuel." 

Jacob finally turned to face me and I'd almost jumped when I'd seen his stern face. He didn't look like the one I know in reality. Right away I knew it was a dream. "Do you care about him?"

I hung my head.

He sighed and banged his hand against the wall. And he was shaking. And Shaking. And Shaking. And I let out a scream.

It was a dream. Thank God. Just a dream. 

But that wasn't the case, because as I stood up. I felt aches and sores all over my body and I caught the purplish scars and scratches splotching my body. The couch was ripped open and the fluff was floating down like snow. The sliding door was thrown into the jungle and Jacob was nowhere to be found.

I was wrong.........It wasn't a dream.