a place beyond The WaterFall (verträumt) -Roman

a place beyond The WaterFall #4 #Samantha

It wasn't always easy for me to challenge my feelings for Jane. It was always her for the moment, I always put her first and the rest came less, coz I actually needed no one else around as long as she was right by my side. But I had to ignore all those thoughts and feelings while pretending to have transformed my emotion, using it for the best friendship the world has ever known. Yes, we were sharing the almost- perfect- friendship, but still there was always that one moment driving me thinking, wishing a day would come, on which she'd come closer and ask for more. I couldn't keep myself from wishing, but I never had the perfect courage to catch her interest. Sometimes I caught her feeling the same, but what was keeping us out of our feelings for one another wasn't clear at all.
Jane didn't want me to mess up the chance in showing Samantha much love and so did I decide to learn to want Samantha more than anyone else, even Jane.
The next three days were somehow too funny. I had to grant Samantha the permission to go home and take good care of herself for a whole week, because she was having fiver at work. She had worked so hard the whole past week & perhaps the past night might have been so terrible for her. I wouldn't have let her come along to rescue Jane from her unpleasant situation, but she was so cute that I couldn't say no.
Paying her a visit after work on Friday was something I was waiting to do during the last four days of her absence and then it finally happened. It was nearly Friday evening and I was holding a bundle of flowers in one hand and two pizzas in the other. It didn't take ten seconds for her to open the door after I knocked. She was only having a towel on, ready for a quick shower, thought it was her neighbor knocking at her door for a second time. Although she knew I was already on my way earlier, but she didn't know the time has run so fast. That was the first time I saw her naked, almost naked.
She wanted to quickly dress up after I gave her a moment to take a shower. She stood in front of the mirror, which I could simply see from the living room where I was waiting for her on the couch. She looked so awesome in her naked state, so attractive and sexy. My eyes couldn't focus on anything else, but that figure of hers, those good looking tits, that piercing she got on her belly button, awesome. We had a wonderful night together, even though I couldn't really grant her the perfect ending of her choice. I didn't want it to happen in our first night of conversation though, an uncontrollable sexual feeling. But the night with her was so wonderful that I started feeling her being sad about me not showing any interest in a sexual ending. I couldn't even sleep in my own bed that night, the night turned so young and the only thing I could hear was the tic of the clock, which was interrupting my force of sleep. Keeping my focus on something else was possible, still I couldn't fall asleep.
"Why is the day judging me like this? Is it because I refused to do that one thing every cell of my body wanted, due to the fact that my heart didn't want that in the very first night?"
I asked myself. I started regretting that I neither did com in her nor took a first step so close towards embracing her sexually for the night.
There she was waiting for me the next evening after I had written her test messages earlier on. I had been working for ten hours, but still I wasn't weary at all. On the contrary, I was burning towards what was waiting for me after work. Sama opened the door with a smile on her face and all I wanted was never to make her sad for a second time. There came kisses on her cheeks while she kept smiling and the rest became a beautiful experience though.
Although she turned to be all over me after that night just like I turned crazy over her, but still the worse of it remains the same. I just couldn't deny my feelings for Jane despite Sama's closeness and its pace.
"Hey best friend. Interested in a plate of cashew soup and a milk-bread for the evening? Miss you!"
A message I was waiting the whole week to receive was one that made me happier than I was immediately I woke up for work at six O'clock in the morning.
"Sure Jay, my pleasure. Miss you more!"
Having asked her what's new she couldn't stop taking about Dennis Ackerman, nickname "Denack". Denack was the son of her boss, who she coincidentally met on her way to work. She was hurrying up when her car suddenly went off. She actually wanted to give me a call at that very same moment, but she failed to. She had a surprising rescue in the meanwhile. Denack stopped to give her a further rude to the same destination. Jane didn't only see him being kind, friendly, good-looking and tolerant, but also admired and loved his appearance.
"It's fascinating the way fate works...the way he laughs, speaks, interpret things and appear in hard times all of a sudden is magical"
The delicious taste of her cashew soup at dinner couldn't calm me down. I was burning inside, somehow jealous despite my happiness for her. I believed she would feel the same if I told her about me having had coitus with Samantha.
"They've been seeing one another for two weeks and she didn't even say a word till yet"
They even had coitus two days before she could tell me all of it in a flash, not even once but twice. Looking at her while she couldn't stop smiling I somehow felt joyful despite the sadness that occurred. My hope to have my best friend all for myself for the evening was made impossible by her words. She was lost in her own emotions; I could obviously see her drifted away in happiness. All I could say were five sentences that evening:
"Hi Jay"
"Wow"
"Was thoroughly nice being around, best friend and I'm glad that you're happy"
"Yeah, it was truly a wonderful evening"
"Hear from you tomorrow"
I was a little hurt by the words that night. As a matter of fact it gave me a sleepless night, but in the dawn of the next day I felt much better & happy for her was I also. Denack wasn't bad at all, though. Jane brought him along to pay me a short visit at work the next day. He looked gentle, good and somehow behaved like me & then I knew why Jane got into him. He simply reminds her of me. I was thankful for seeing him for the first time. It gave me a relief and I could torture my mind no longer.
Denack and I suddenly had a certain "BANG". We could hardly draw ourselves off the conversation we were into. At the same time Jane was busy pouring out her happiness with Samantha in her office. I knew Jane would be mad at me for not telling her about my encounter with Sama in her own bed. Sama couldn't stop smiling, but Jane didn't mind. Although she was shocked hearing that, but only for a moment.
"Why mustn't Evid be happy too?"
I felt her thinking. Everything got easier to handle. We were all over ourselves. I started hanging out with Denack in my free times while Jane & Samantha suddenly did the same. Most times we all spent the night together coming out of bowling centers into the night clubs, leaving our expensive cars in the garage for a ride out of town by motorbike. For the first time since Jane & I turned friends I learned to accept her relationship with someone else and I liked what I was seeing so much. I mean they were both happy together. Denack became a good friend of mine, although I hardly bear them kissing or rubbing shoulders in front of me. My excuse was either going to the toilette or outside to give very important business calls.
Dealing with myself was the best I could do to ensure Jane's happiness.
"She has lost the most precious thing in her life, the future with her own father, the love of a father. She deserves no one else, but someone to make her smile and have the reason to always be happy, nothing else but true love."
We were four happy people in our special group. Although, I became the reason Jane lost her new best friend (Sama) in the end, but I was only honest in my decision though. I just couldn't stop watching Sama fall deeper than she was already doing for me.
Of course she started admitting me having strong feelings for Jane, whenever I had to leave the scene to give someone else a call only to hesitate Denack kisses. To round it up, I couldn't even dare to kiss her in front of Jane. She had all of my actions for a reason to admit was she said. It took her two weeks to be ready enough to share her worries with me. It was the perfect moment for her. She was resting her head on my chest in bed after we had laughed the whole evening for the funny moments we had four hours earlier, which was during and after work. Then she suddenly asked that one question at the right moment.
"Yes, you're damn right, Sama. I have strong feelings for Jane. Why not? She's been my best friend the whole years, my good girl since the first day at school. I've been into her the whole years, but at the same time I really don't want to lose her as a best friend. But I love you so much Sama and I want you to understand my situation. I'm bearing the fact that Jane's happy with Denack and he is not bad anyways. I want to spend the rest of my life with you, coz you are not bad too, Babe"
Although I knew very well that the last sentence was nothing else but a slight exaggeration.