Upside Down

Chapter 11

~Two days before

~Cherline Pov.

I couldn't take my life style anymore. My daughter hated me for trying to teach her how the street games are played.

I escape from rehab and ran too the crack house were i used to live.

Of course they were glad to see me.

I went down the hall swatting away the stinch of weed, and went inside the empty room. I turn on the radio and just stared in the mirror.

Who the heck Am I, i was not like this 10 years ago. Drugs can really change a bitch into a monster.

I regret not being there for Mariah and hoeing around. Instead i put sex and money before my own blood.

I know who her dad was ,

but he wanted nothing to do with me when i got on drugs.

I just fucked up my life. I'm freaking

34 and still making childish choices.

Damn and tommorrow would my 35 birthday i totally forgot my own birthday.

I went into the cracked up filthy kitchen and took a knife, I asked one of the fat guys name "Smalls'' for stack of paper and a black pen.

"Here Cheri" he said handing me the papers and pen with a smile.

"Thanks smalls" I said kissing his forehead and handing back to the room.

Smalls was my bestfriend he never judge me and always had my back. He was the one that found me a rehab center. We known each other  ever since High School. I really love

that man.

I sat down and turn the radio volume a little louder.

It felt like ages since i wrote on paper. I use to be an A and B student back in high school but i just messed with the wrong people. I wish i used my poem skills instead.

I decided i just need to get this over with.

As my favorite Micheal Jackson song played slowly and softly through my ears "remember the time"

Dear mama,

I sorry for all the pain and trouble i cause you growing up. You were the only one there that helped and supported me through the good and the bad. Even though we would agrue and fight you were my number one in my eyes. I love and cherish all the good and bad memories we share. Your my rock and soul. My pride and joy

My all. Love you mama see you soon.

She held my hands in her hands

Even though we struggle now in then

You always had a back up plans

They say love is a strong word

but when I say i love you

it's like everything comes true

I don't need proof

Because best belive its for you.

                 love your only daughter,

                           Cherline.

I felt tears streaming down my

face.

Dear Smalls,