Book 1: Infest:

2

I hadn't been sleeping. I looked like crap. I was stressed to a point that a teenager probably shouldn't be stressed at, but what could I do? My life was seriously just a living hell! I hated everything and was struggling to not hate everyone right now because my friends did nothing but be there for me, I felt like just getting up and leaving most days because I didn't want to deal with anything anymore. I hated being at home and I hated being at school because the girls were absolutely horrible, it was a pretty much daily thing that they picked on me.

"So are you going to come to the party tonight?" Olivia asked

"If I can get out yeah..... I need to make sure Maddy will be okay "

Olivia smiled "sure. Just let me know?"

She walked off and I went to my locker to get my things but I was slammed into it so hard I got a cut on my brow bone, I bit my lip I wanted nothing more than to punch this bitch. But I knew better than to throw the first punch because I wasn't about to get in trouble especially with my parents, even though usually they don't involve themselves with anything that has to do with me not even school because they just don't care. While most kids who have parents that don't care would be out doing the same things and getting into trouble, or just flat out doing whatever they want and not getting into trouble, I chose to better myself and took everything they do as examples of how not to be.

I knew it was a big long shot at my parents letting me go to a party they barely let me go anywhere as is, and if maddy was going to be alone then I didn't want to leave her with them.
She had friends so she could maybe stay with one of them for the night and I'd get her tomorrow, I don't know I guess I will see. I was walking home when my boyfriend pulled up stopping the car, I turned and smiled at him then got in.

"I love your kisses" he remarked "why didn't you call me? I'd have came and got you"

"Figured you were busy besides its fine I have legs you know....."

"Mmmm that you do...." he kissed me again running a hand through my hair, as much as I loved him I was always afraid he just wanted sex and I figured that's what he was about to go for and I got a little upset. "But..... I don't always have to be in them" he said looking at me with a smile and I was surprised then felt bad for jumping to conclusions "as much as I love it and as amazing as it is, I also really love you so..... it's not the only thing I want...."

We pulled away finally going to my house and when I got inside I was slapped hard it caught me off guard so I fell to the floor, I couldn't even process what happened I was in shock then looked up to see my mom standing there.

"Just what the hell Do you think you're doing you little whore?" I was too afraid to say anything so she slapped me again "answer me!"

"I just got a ride home that's it!" I wanted to cry so bad I was being honest we didn't do anything else "mom I swear I just got a ride home...."

"You think you can sit there and lie to me? I was your age once I know what goes on.... "

"It doesn't matter what I say because you believe what you want to believe....."

She grabbed me by the hair dragging me up the stairs into my room then pushed me onto the floor, I couldn't wait to get out of this house! I was working two jobs to save money just so I could.

"Just for getting a smart mouth your dad will deal with you when he gets here...."

She left slamming the door and I finally let the tears fall then laid on my bed fearing for when my dad got home, when he did he slammed my door open grabbing me by the arm and yanking me up.

"Did you get a smart mouth with your mom?"

"Dad. She asked me a question and I answered it.... that's all..... I swear I wasn't doing anything but get a ride home...."

"No more rides home you can walk an I better not catch you with no boy .... and watch your damn mouth"

He didn't say anything else just left the room I was thankful I didn't get a beating this time but my relief was short lived when I heard him yelling at maddy, I jumped up running to her bedroom and pulling her away from him. When he looked at me I knew it was all over, that I was going to get it but I didn't care I'd take a beating for my sister any day and that was just what I got. When he was done he went downstairs and I went back into my room.... I was tired of everything, tired of everyone, I didn't want to hurt anymore I was over it. Later on my parents had left for hours probably out getting drunk when they got back of course they were fighting, my mom came into my room blaming everything on me and when she left I broke down. I snuck out a while later grabbing some prescription medication from the bathroom cabinet then went back in my room locking the door, but right when I was about to take them there was a knock on the door.

"Lita?"

"Maddy not right now "

"Can I come in?"

"No! I said not right now!"

She started crying "lita please.... I'm scared.... I just want to be with you.... I love you "

I started crying then let her in I couldn't believe I was about to kill my self, as we laid on the bed crying together. How could I have been so selfish? I wouldn't ever do that again.