Book 1: Infest:

6

"Hey... is everything going okay? You've been different ever since you got back from California...."

"Going through a breakup Helena..... "

"Oh I didn't know you were seeing someone "

"Not just that.... I gave him everything and accepted a proposal from him. I mean how stupid?"

"You're not stupid lita it's not like you could have known "

"I was stupid to believe it would last..."

"Well. You're young and another man will come along at the right time you know? In the meantime I'm there for you, I got your back and you got mine...."

"Yeah that's a plus but what has been going on with you? You've been gone a lot"

"I guess I should tell you...... I'm moving out to California with my boyfriend...."

It was bad news after bad news.... I got up going home crying alone in my room, first thinking about the fact I didn't want be here I just wanted to disappear. Thinking about how long has he been doing this? It made me sick to my stomach, I guess I'm just not good enough? I'm not pretty enough she looked better than I did. It took so long for me to not break myself down and now I'm right back to where I started. It was no surprise that the word spread and the girls who really wanted him laughed at me they fed on drama and I was embarrassed, I spiraled into a depression everything was so perfect how did this happen? I felt like I really was in a dream but when he didn't call or text I thought back to that day and it was a painful reminder that this was real.

My uncle and some other family members were coming to visit for a while and I never looked forward to that, I didn't like any of them especially when my uncle and dad get together. They're like peas in a pod. They both are corrupt and abusive to their wives but to them it's perfectly normal, I also couldn't stand him because he liked to pick at me and I didn't like the way he looked at me now that I was older.

"I mean am I right or what? Hey Marie! Where the hell is my beer woman!" My uncle yelled at my aunt and she jumped up bringing it to him

They continued talking on about things they did as kids like fighting and how he had been to prison, later on everyone was in bed but I could hear a struggle between my aunt and uncle I tried to pretend I didn't see what I saw but he caught me and yanked me into the room throwing me onto the bed. He wreaked of alcohol so bad it made me want to puke, I was no match against him and I knew I'd get a earful later but I didn't care I wasn't going to let him do this. I finally got out of the room and all my dad said was I should learn to stay in my place and mind my own business, I hated this family all I felt was anger like he could die and I wouldn't give a shit, this family was so dysfunctional and I wanted out.